Christmas Present, maybe I still don't have one this year

I am just a bit too nervous maybe... But I am serious and sincere with you, I didn't play around the feelings with you for 3 years... I know I may be too far away to be what you want, but what I know is I love you, to be true. Can we tell out what's between us? We can be happy as others right?

So sorry if I actually hurted you or ruined your emotion, I apologize. But really hope we could have a chance, and a better Christmas this year and forever.