In Deep

In Deep... Referring to an OST of Command & Conquer Red Alert 2.

Here... However... Not this time

I began to think... Why I need to struggle and to tell someone when they are wrong when they don't even bother the fact... Charles always taught me to let them be... But listening to what they talk, or should I say bullshitting is really an ear sore.

I began to think, I am not really smart but sometimes know too much... That makes people don't really like me.

I began to realize, I can crap and play but not to the crazy extent... That's why my friends around me not really like to hang out with me.

I began to realize, I am sure I just need her be with me... And it is a far far dream beyond Zanarkand.

So I say... I am just what I am... But I can't change the truth and fact that she doesn't like something like me, nor did I can change the fact that I can become another one that she likes probably...

"Choose someone that loves you is better than choosing someone that you loved" Well, this not really apply on me I think...

So that... Sometimes I wonder, what is the purpose of me to exist... Since every sincerity, effort, good will, and feelings I put on and give out is meant to be nothing towards her and friends around me which applicable... All are just "NOT Gate" as in Logic Gates.