复杂的心情（三）

或许我有意愿 或许我有想法

但我知道重要性

我不想摧毁那信任与自由

那一片海阔天空

复杂的心情（二）

欲哭无泪？

还好啦。。。只是不能哭而已，因为某种原因，可以说是一种连医生都解释不了的现象。

算了？我应该还好。不要做太多的梦就好。要不然会被人笑。

更远的是，会被人讨厌。

眼泪笑了

 

比想象中更痛 你真的没回头
我命令眼泪不许失控

回忆不跟你走 都挤在我心中
我就有责任让它值得被珍重

谢谢你曾让我难过
谢谢我没有想太多
当爱情左盼右顾的时候

我眼泪都笑了 谁还想哭呢
再勇敢的站着 找回光和热
面对你的时候 我不会舍不得
因为你已是过客 因为路有些曲折
是美的

心碎成了沙漠 就快开凿绿洲
我没有时间不知所措

你温柔的双手 本就不属于我
又何必在乎它以后属于谁呢

谢谢你曾让我难过
谢谢我没有想太多
当爱情左盼右顾的时候

我眼泪都笑了 谁还想哭呢
再勇敢的站着 找回光和热
面对你的时候 我不会舍不得
因为你已是过客 因为路有些曲折

你眼泪都笑了 谁还会哭呢
来不及完美的 就唱首骊歌
想起你的时候 我不是卑微的
反而我没有遗憾 因为我已爱过你
深深的

复杂的心情

其实没什么

但是好像又有很多复杂的东西

但我知道是自己在想（废话）

然而就这样

想说不能说 想要不敢要

还会想回以前 好像很矛盾

心理脑海中都在打架

 

笨蛋 白痴 傻瓜

我不可能的啦

我就这样告诉我自己

鲁冰花

我知道 半夜的星星会唱歌
想家的夜晚 它就这样和我一唱一和

我知道 午后的清风会唱歌
童年的蝉声 它总是跟风一唱一和

当手中握住繁华
心情却变得荒芜
才发现世上一切都会变卦

当青春剩下日记
乌丝就要变成白发
不变的就只有那首歌
在心中来回地唱

啊~~~啊~~~
夜夜想起妈妈的话
闪闪的泪光鲁冰花
天上的星星不说话
地上的娃娃想妈妈
天上的眼睛眨呀眨
妈妈的心呀鲁冰花
家乡的茶园开满花
妈妈的心肝在天涯
夜夜想起妈妈的话
闪闪的泪光鲁冰花

啊~~~啊~~~
夜夜想起妈妈的话
闪闪的泪光鲁冰花

啊~~~啊~~~
夜夜想起妈妈的话
闪闪的泪光~~~

敢爱不能爱

不敢爱的。。。怕失败，有点理所当然。但怕失败也就已经失败？

敢爱的。。。听天由命，一切就看双方造化？

但

敢爱、想爱但却不得已不能爱的呢？是否也是失败？

个人的人格问题？

一些朋友的关系？

或从来就没有被对方放在心里过？

对方根本就不喜欢？

Calm?

Finally a smile after so long, fake or real at least it is there maybe?

Sorry for such short post, got much stuffs in mind again… Hard to elaborate just like in exam…

Anyway hope you all liked the song 轨迹 in previous post… Pretty straightforward and hope you all understand the underlying meaning.

Sorry for the lower quality choice of video, because all other is analog version with only 1 side sound.

轨迹

怎么隐藏我的悲伤 失去你的地方
你的发香散得匆忙 我已经跟不上

闭上眼睛还能看见 你离去的痕迹
在月光下一直找寻 那想念的声音

如果说分手是苦痛的起点 那在终点之前我愿意再爱一遍
想要对你说的不敢说的爱 会不会有人可以明白？

我会发着呆 然后忘记你 接着紧紧闭上眼
想着那一天 会有人代替 让我不再想念你

我会发着呆 然后微微笑 接着紧紧闭上眼
又想了一遍 你温柔的脸 在我忘记之前

心里的眼泪 模糊了视线 你已快看不见

忘不了

没有忘不了的事情，只有忘不了的心情？

偏偏对我而言，两者都忘不了。

时间，或长或短。。。经过的事情，含有的心情。

改变了结果吗？

讨厌事实吗？或者是讨厌现实？

是，不是，对，不对，爱，不爱。

Meaning but not intended

Sincerely regret, and wish to apologize and recover from the situation.

That’s the meaning to convey, but never intended it to happen. Just another way of saying or stating.

Sincerely hope you are not angry at it.

Honda Global Amity Exclusive Civic Type R Test Drive

Indeed a very exclusive and rare opportunity, Honda Global Amity despite having 6 units of Civic Type R in stock, decided to request the test drive unit from Honda Malaysia and they did succeed in doing so, attracted much people to the event.

The event itself accompanied with the soft launch of the Civic 1.8 S-L, technically same theory as the Accord 2.0 VTi-L…

Well, KP, Peggy, Alice are kind enough to accompany me to the event, with me and KP testing the Civic Type R.

I was well informed that not to put too much expectation as the test drive unit is severely damaged before, and indeed the feelings are totally different than the original Type R of my brother. The acceleration is weird as with the engine sound, brakes worn off, clutch didn’t engage as it should be.

Nevertheless, it should be a good opportunity for KP to test although he seems to excited and got off to dangerous track show, other than that the drive was smooth.

The day should be fine enough, with a visit to WCG… What a memory, the stage the players… 2 years ago, when I am one of them… But no more, never regret, I did what I wanted that year.

BUT NOW

The day seems didn’t end so well… At least in my perception, as my previous post got deciphered and accidentally leaked.

AND THIS IS REGRET

Words from heart

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IYMKLECDWEHSTKOOSAUTOLNBICINOGUPCNEVSTHEGD

Good things always difficult?

Girls… Studies… Gaming alike…

A very short one, finally a decent place to play with friends nicely

BUT

It is far in Bandar Bukit Tinggi, Klang. The cyber cafe specification just nice, but infested with low class DOTA players.

Challenges (TW Version)

Although I am not any top or world class player in Command & Conquer 3 Tiberium Wars, but somehow I should stand firm still against any normal challenges.

BUT

Here RICO came out with a crazy idea albeit challenge, to handicap ownself for 30% against a Hard AI, with 40000 starting credits.

The result is expected none other than bitter defeat…

However, the same situation but with 10000 starting credits default, I managed to complete the impossible like they said, with KP getting the almost the right idea in the end of gameplay.

Well, next time when free I shall try the 40000 credits… Although  I think I might fail there but I hope not.

我不落泪，但情绪零碎

很直接。

但是还是同样的理由，我很闷。这个闷有两边的意思，一个指我的本性，一个指我很久以来的状况。

或者

她连一个聪明，爱说笑来讨她欢心，喜欢捣蛋但脾气怪的男生都可以有这样的下场。

我最好就不要想也不用想，这方法挺聪明吧？

还有，最近要看好是否有错字。

不过。。。重点是我要说，很多时候我真的没什么了不起，压根儿地说，根本我喜欢的从来都没有一个会对我有兴趣。

最近很怪，也许。。。

好像不只是回忆，感觉上好像多了很多想法，甚至在梦里也会出现。。。像被灌输了东西。。。但我还不能看见未来= =

Inner Desire

Everyone has got inner desire.

Just a matter of time that they will realize it, consciously or unconsciously.

Different ways of expressing and realizing.

What are the recent dreams? The unfinished word?

Can I have a complete answer soon? But sometimes it may be a bad idea to know. Mood is hard to catch.

However the above is somewhere between conscious and unconscious.

 

The conscious one, all those I mentioned by word.

And some very interesting and for fun, Best of 3 series match between Yu Peng and KP.

Secondary Brief Write Through

Those days…

Now become so relax and simple… Even more with the license in hand…

Maybe a girl I should have gone for… Maybe a girl I should have not gone for…

Maybe a subject I should have not give up… Maybe I should have do well in everything else…

And maybe I shouldn’t maybe now…

Many I want to tell here, but not without someone beside me now…

Academy Principal

Knowledge is Power, Power is Freedom. All secrets will be discovered, and mastered in time.

Look…

I haven’t really achieve that… And never will I suppose… But ensure will keep me alive in certain situation.

“Study well when it is peace and harmony, rather than panic when it is war and chaos.”

The Girl Next Door?

Alright as if there is one but however title just a title for this time maybe?

You have to do something bad for doing and achieving something good?

You risk everything in certain circumstances just to regain something that is ahead in your life, equally important to what is of current.

You need to know, if the juice if worth the squeeze?

A girl, a hug, and a game…

OR

A guy, a hug, and a game…

Just someone, that will make you get out of yourself, to do and try what you never know, what you never unlock, that you long thought you never become like that. And he/she asks you “What is the craziest thing you’ve done lately?” And you can say “You~~ And everything”

Gentlemen… Gentledemon

Inspired from Kha-Beleth.
We use gentlemen to describe politeness in humans; however gentledemon simply reverses of that means of rudeness and pure evil.
Ok, it’s been another long hiatus.
First and foremost, the South Africa FIFA World Cup 2010 finally getting to the finale, in a way that many would relieved that this planned madness finally going to end, you need to give credit to them by making it so real just like WWE. Well, it is simple reason. South Africa is the host, but didn’t manage to go through group stage, now if you flip through World Cup history, you will find that none of the host ever failed to make it through group stages, with this time South Africa being the first. With South Africa out, FIFA expects nothing but drop of sales in tickets. To make it not so worse, this is why Netherlands journeyed this long into final. Take note and flash back, whenever there this is Netherlands game, the referee always will blow “Offside” to Netherlands opponent VALID and PROPER FIRST GOAL, giving Netherlands another chance and take caution in their weak defenses, very sorry to Uruguay and all Netherlands opponent before. Now why Netherlands? Geography and demography class time, South Africa second major population is Dutch, which means Netherlands people. With South Africa out, Netherlands definitely will become the second “Host” and favored by local people. This way, FIFA could ensure the interests of locals and protecting their sales.
I have to say… APIIT attendance system really crap, but nevertheless useful to make extra money and give trouble to students.
I have to mention… I have some “something” in mind that I cannot afford to tell, lest there will be a bad consequences.