Christmas 2010

Well I don’t really celebrate Christmas honestly, except for that special 1 or 2 years where suddenly wished to…

But I know… It is a day of good hope for many… Well, nonetheless than a good holiday…

So Christmas Eve, Silent Night… A term, because it isn't silent really… A crazy and enjoyable night for some, can be also a sweet silent night for others.

So some ridiculous thing happened to my friend, but thank god he is alright, hope he will take note from this lesson.

And Santa… Well, my friend asked me to wish no matter how… Yea, so will see if things getting better?

Gaming

As per title, this post is about gaming.

As per title, this post is about gaming.

As per title, this post is about gaming.

As per title, this post is about gaming.

As per title, this post is about gaming.

As per title, this post is about gaming.

As per title, this post is about gaming.

As per title, this post is about gaming.

As per title, this post is about gaming.

As per title, this post is about gaming.

As per title, this post is about gaming.

As per title, this post is about gaming.

As per title, this post is about gaming.

As per title, this post is about gaming.

As per title, this post is about gaming.

As per title, this post is about gaming.

As per title, this post is about gaming.

As per title, this post is about gaming.

As per title, this post is about gaming.

As per title, this post is about gaming.

As per title, this post is about gaming.

Oh hell~~~ Too bad she isn’t in KeSPA~~~

Because we don’t have MaSPA here either~~~

Oh wait… What game do you play?

What? Sorry, you are not qualified…

Well who cares your KeSPA or MaSPA… I merely can piss off someone with my gaming lol…

Wow, really? Then we welcome you… Such a rare talent…

 

Ok… To real thing…

So it is entertainment… I presume… I suppose…

Yea, just my problems then…

I should try back the gaming life? Or just to see if I can stand 2-3 hours straight gaming like her?

Suck Sucking Sucks

This is what about me, what about things around.

Suddenly, I realized everything faded, realized I lost everything… But except I am still alive…

There goes one saying, as long as you still living and alive, you haven’t lost everything, at least still living to go on.

By any means… Really wished to escape, for this time…

By any means… Realized it isn’t any care or love but tyranny from them…

Many to say… Many to tell…

But just not in the mood to type it out…

A paved path… A walked-out path…

So… Fact is fact…

But what about that fact being so factual?

Is perception over fact? Or fact over perception?

Which one will be dominant force… Which one will be controllable…

Answer anyone?

Likewise, when it is a fact being told, but a certain person with unique perception might not see it that way, and so it is not a fact to him/her.

So how do you make that someone unique to agree that it is the fact and truth, or how do that someone unique make more people to follow his thoughts and idea, without the aid of the so arguably existent mind control or psychology etc…

For science worshippers, experiments and trials will give them answer… But there are too many subject that can’t be subjected to experiments and trials likewise… And many of those are simply about the ever blurred line life and death, moral, ethics, right and wrong…

Once again, the world isn’t fair and square… Yes, so it doesn’t work that way either…

So… To the question above, one can’t think for the answer, but some get the straight answer faster than ever…

If ever there is someone there reading? Any answer to get from you?

Before I reveal any answer of mine… Let’s get back to the title itself… Supposedly a paved path is more comfortable, but so at certain costs… And don’t ever think that the costs itself only affect the individual who paved it, so do the next generation or the people that use and follow it… Or maybe should try to walk a path of your own, and then you do the same to the next generation and doing great pavement and ask them follow it at the costs of~~~~~~~~~~~

Or simply just forget it… You walked it, you experienced it, and you just keep it to yourself. No extra costs, no debt, and not to pass down any…

And what if the people who followed only half way and then walked off? So you ain’t getting what you need back…

Ouch~~~ Such a painful fact, or opsss… Is it fact? Or is it perception?

SO… Here I say, authority and power… Somehow make what we people today being such twisted at some time… “You don’t follow me, you don’t obey me, you go to hell, go to die, I will kill you, (Insert anything)…

So the opposite side, either choose to follow because of SO RIGHTFUL authority, or just go on own, give up everything and starts from zero to get everything that they wanted.

Government…

Enforcers…

Parents…

 

Pathetic isn’t it? Should I just follow, and enforce exactly if I have the chance to enjoy the pleasure of doing so even though I am against it?… OR shall I pay the price?

Relationship and Pre-marital pregnancy

En Taro Adun, Executor… Opsss, wrong opening…

Anyway…

I think I don’t have telepathy or any psionic matters… As I am not embracing the way of Khala like the Protoss…

However, this topic is intentional yet not all, but coincide with the very hot news where controversy arises about the suicide mission conducted by the very now famous guy Alviss Kong.

Well… Some grant him the fame, the name, as their handsome Hero or Romeo or whatever…

Some or majority I think… Will say that it is utterly foolish… And this I can see it from my pal Junny Chong Kyun Yee, where I see much enlightenment in him after he spent some time back in his hometown. Yes, no matter how… It is not the end, not so easy for a life… Where many unfortunate can’t even have right from the birth…

Or is it? Right before the proper formation of life?

So about pre-marital pregnancy…

Before this, marriage and life, giving birth… What exactly is the law or rules there? How many victims… Victims, or rather I use, children to their very lovely parents, the candy in their parents’ eyes… Suddenly become forgotten rubbish, like a fallen angel, tainted with eternal darkness and void… Where is the rationale and love?

So, we are pretty much self proclaimed human with moral, ethics, religion and so on… But heck, does that all applies? One heard from very own daughter saying that she is pregnant, before marriage… And all went off to hell… So the life within is cursed? Cursed not only appointed as improper formation, but doing so his/her birth right is in jeopardy… Even granted, living under such parents that got nothing but pressure and cursed eyesight from friends and families…

For the love of god… Why is that exactly happening? Is that so true that most people let their corrupted moral and self acclaimed pride blind their eyes?

When saying so… Understand, for those who apply… I am saying that, of course there are some who are not pity-able and definitely just go on wild themselves… But, compare up… How exactly does the proportion fares?

Sentimental beings… With feelings… Isn’t that a proper education, a proper care of warmth should be carried out instead of cold-arrows, flame-cannon, and thunder storms being hurled at them? They certainly regretted and learnt the hard way…

Amani… Nakupenda We We…

It’s round? It’s straight? It’s curve?

“Things never goes fair and square, because the world is oval and round.” (RICO, 2010)

How about the angle, the perspective of seeing things then?
Some see it straight, some see it strict, did someone see it strait? Opss…

Likewise, what is moral, ethics, and law?
Is the jury system really worked out and uphold justice as it meant to be?

There is simply too many perceptions, views and opinion…

Some foolish, some arrogant, and some… and some… You name it…

“Opinion is like an asshole, everyone has one.” (Anon, 2007)

And then it came to parents and child…

Filial piety… Well, maybe soon in some years ahead, you will see there is one such book titled “Filial Piety GUIDELINES”… Maybe you will be interested that this things even have GUIDELINES, that guide you step by step, what you MUST DO and MUST NOT DO. And the author behind it, urghhhh… I think many traditional minded parents probably sponsored the whole publications. Oh Shit no… Then it shouldn’t be selling at bookstore, but given free…

And then it came to politics restricting freedom…

Oh hell… We have our Internet speed capped, with a very sound policy named “Fair Usage Policy”, and soon maybe all the “insulting” social network banned as claimed by our very “Nationalism, Patriotism, Islamism and most importantly, ARM-NoRRRRRRR-ism leader, situated somewhere within the border of the north, a place named Perlis.

And then it came to another interesting part, relationship and pre-marital pregnancy…

(To be continued)…

December 2010

So it is already the final month of the year 2010…

What a disastrous year… Predicted? Changing? Or any reason you could think of…

So not really going to tell something, but just a prologue…

Start with…
Whatever… Anything… Fine…

End with…
Sigh…

Something about everything

Time…

It’s slow when suffering… Fast when enjoying…

Funds…

Seems enough but never quite near adequate…

Stress…

Anytime, anywhere, anything…

Dreams…

Never should be restricted, it costs you nothing but some unconscious time.

Propaganda…

It shows how people can be affected, ironically most of the time when the information is false.

Ideology…

A good way to start war… With all assumptions to make one self happy.

 

I think I crap a bit…

It is still long, long way… To my life, to my desired life, lifestyle…

To be cared and loved… Exactly as in heart and mind…

I dare not ask much, nor to comment for changes always…

Because I know, it might hurt the others… But I can’t stand sometimes…

Questioning the norm… It costs, but it depends how it will pay off in the end…

Sometimes I feel it worked out nicely, but sometimes I feel the resistance, as if there is resilient armor.

Yes, the odds may not be on my side, but I don’t quite get how to explain what’s in me.

Maybe if the one willing to hear…

 

“He who commands the past, controls the future; He who commands the future, conquers the past.” – Kane

Keep forwarding, forgot the past please… I will see your defeat… Will see when the Guardian Angel expires…

 

Maybe under these kind of conditions, soon my fantasy will be all gone…

Why?

Things not in control.

Things out of expectation.

Is it just me or?

Curses… Curses…

Everything just oppose…

Including that of very loved.

It is not broken into pieces, yet…

Yet, feeling the pain and fragile.

Remember?

Remember?

Remember?

When one goes rogue and evil

The truth is, there is this nature in everyone…

Just how possible it is to be revealed…

I suddenly feel the joy and pleasure, to see those intended to suffer…

It is just so nice… To win as always… But to win utmost with dirty tricks, that crushes them beneath the stone, beyond resurrection.

I know, one can calm me… But the one as always is the one that started, always not going to calm me…

Bleed… Bleed in the heart… No, but bleed from the throat for real, I wonder how did that damage my throat?

She says I am over manipulating… Yes, so true… But so do the reasoning behind…

Mind, is really one strong powerful weapon yet a strong fortification…

The Dream The Fantasy The Reality

Dreams can be beautiful.

Fantasies can be wild.

Yet reality can totally oppose you.

 

Fact and reality… Looks same but not so same…

Maybe put in such a way, the fact is you didn’t do something, but the other person assume that the reality is that you did, for the reasons they like.

 

So… Sorry, back to business… Maybe here I wasn’t really updating anything, or maybe it is… Whichever way you all reading out there felt, then it will be…

Maybe I really ought to pursue wild fantasies… But not really much anymore after this, I should have learned not to sway away from my base principals. Dreams… Fantasies… Maybe forever just on my own… I shouldn’t try much on real life…

Sigh… Yes, I am sad? I am down? Hmmmm, maybe not all but somehow… Maybe I shouldn’t but somehow I feel I will and currently is and like a CVT constantly changing… In deep questioning myself, and the surroundings of me and her.

Maybe for one time, I really made a crazy movement to UCTI as quoted by my friend Tzmin…

And it is not that I don’t know how to care… But maybe, I should just sit down and have a talk, straight enough… Or maybe just whack myself to deep thoughts again…

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Oldies & Classical

It is during MCV class, abbreviation for Managing Customer Value…

The lecturer says, of our generation… We are still more sane compared to current latest generation…

Yes, we live in this modern time too… But asked us, what music what movie do we like?

Aerosmith, Michael Jackson, Eagles, Aaron Kwok, Jacky Cheung and so on…

Movie wise… Armageddon, The Godfather and etcetera…

The lecturer was glad nobody said Lady GaGa and Justin Bieber (urgghhh)…

 

And now around me…

It seems true except some few people who don’t…

What surprising is Khai Phin… But then well I guess he still knew much of those motivational one…

Not that I am really that older than them, just maybe opportunity… Other than opportunity, “not seeing is believing” attitude for them…

Well… Everyone is limited either…

Fuck My Life

So…

It feels so good to be in power and in control of everything…

Whether authority bodies, parents, and any position…

Now I guess I know why one desires for power…

Why there is war…

Why there is 爸，我回来了 song…

No, it is extremely deadly and un-filial for me to swear sweet pay back…

But somehow anyhow… I will do it in other nice way…

符爸，一路好走

不知道，为什么都会这么突然……

符爸，一路好走……

您的善心，耐心……

你和符妈照顾我的日子……

永不忘……

谢谢您，符爸……

安息吧……

<Temporary>

Cause a thousand words, called out through the ages

They’ll fly to you, even though I can’t see

I know they’re reaching you, suspended on silver wings

 

Over thousand words, one thousand embraces

They’ll cradle you, making all of your weary days seem far away

They’ll hold you forever

 

Over thousand words, have never been spoken

They’ll fly to you, they’ll carry you home

And back into my arms, suspended on silver wings

 

Over thousand words, called out through the ages

They’ll cradle you, making all of your lonely years to only days

They’ll hold you forever

 

So enough of that first, why there is time where I am so powerless again…

So many going through, but I just don’t know how to tell, or where to start…

So did I just lost myself?

So being unable to tell story, for a few times… It felt just not that good…

<Blasphemous>

So… Calm before the storm…

After rainbow, there this darkness fog of evil comes…

After benediction, there comes howl of terror…

Blasphemous… Just like a Warlock that focuses on Light and not Destruction, just like a Wizard that have no knowledge.

Blasphemous… Sacrilege…

 

Beatrice: Isabel, ma’am Fiona insisted you do not see Nicolai so often, she said she didn’t see you practice much Light Magic in the palace recently.

Isabel: But why? I hate practicing Light Magic… I prefer Dark Magic… Opsss, I mean I prefer physical skills, like drifting…

Beatrice: Don’t ask me… I didn’t do anything to make her say so… And I am not creepy at all, hehehe.

Isabel: Well then, hmmm… I just went Irollan that day with Nicolai, and now so fast back in Talonguard. Well, maybe I should either… Curse that bad, ignorant Nicolai…

Nicolai: Sigh…

<Blank>

So heart and mind…

Is somehow the key to everything…

The greatest motivation, from there…

The greatest excuses and obstacles, also from there…

 

Time… Is the excuses for many…

Perception… Is the obstacles for many…

Learn, analyze, understanding… The motivation for many…

Plan, prepare, risk and precaution probability analysis… The root of success, or at least won’t get you anywhere bad…

 

But

Pity isn’t it?

The first two easily overcome the latter two…

Easy to demolish, but hard to build…

Sigh…

 

Why judge me so?

I am just normal…

It is not too difficult to understand and learn…

Not really need rocket-science as pre-requisite to understand…

Master of Mind

Master of Mind – Grants mass effect to Slow and Confusion spells.

 

Opss… Too much Heroes of Might and Magic 5… Too much Dark Magic…

Well… It is me… But not someone else, that didn’t even touch HOMM5 before…

Still… There is this title, to take the direct meaning…

Master of Mind is just this, but Mastermind is something that should fear…

 

So Academy principal, knowledge, preparations, precautions leads to flawless victory…

But not this time on such thing… Because enemy has acquired the anti-preparations, anti-precautions, and anti-knowledge skills… And most importantly, Temper Armageddon spells, where damage and spell-power depends on mood, and it negates any magic resistance, only a certain specific hero can learn this spell.

I am not a Titan, just a Gremlin…

感觉能压抑……眼泪能忍住……心痛能撑着……心碎能痊愈吗？

终于，到了这一天，虽然不是什么大日子，但算是期盼的。

但是，和往常一样，老天总跟我开玩笑。

在这之前，我必需说，计划赶不上变化，特别尤其是别人心情、心灵上的变化。

无可避免的。。。

有时候，可能我想得太完美。

有时候，可能会说我自私。

但有时候，可能不是我介意什么的，而是。。。

也有时候，她人的确聪明绝顶。

 

时间啊。。。时间啊。。。

你让她忘了什么呢？你也让我忘了什么呢？

想回到过去看看？看看我们最初的美好？看看最原始的美丽？

 

没有了雨，雨刷还是不停左右……没有地球，太阳还是会绕

我很多时候，只敢在这里言语。。。

因为，有时候面对面太难了。。。

也因为，我不是周杰伦。。。我不会加点旋律来骂人。。。

 

“我不可能让所有人都喜欢我，人家要怎么看我我也没办法，因为我不是神。”-周杰伦

我知道有时候你控制不了脾气，没关系。。。但一些东西分清楚。

 

最后，标题只是标题，不是废话，只是与内容无关。

怎么了

情绪、心情……

啊…… 可不可以……

为什么……

这到底是怎么了……

是你？是我？

是我们……

 

不要这样……

可以好一点吗？

爱错

北風毫不留情 把葉子吹落
脆弱的她選擇了逃脫
葉子失去消息 風才感覺寂寞
整個冬天 北風的痛沒人能說

*我從來沒想過 我會這樣做
從來沒愛過 所以愛錯
我從哪裡起飛 從哪裡降落
多少不能原諒的錯卻不能重來過*

翻開回憶角落 完美的生活
以為幸福都可以掌握
仔細回味當初 那個故事背後
Oh 原來是我 犯下從沒承認的錯

Repeat *

在這少了你的世界
Oh 找不回那些感覺
其實我不想道別 (道別)
那些過去

(我從來沒想過 我會這樣做)
(從來沒愛過 所以愛錯) 從來沒有愛過那麼認真
(我從哪裡起飛) 從哪裡
(從哪裡降落) 降落 Oh~
(多少不能原諒的錯卻不能重來過)

(我從來沒想過 我會這樣做)
(從來沒愛過) 愛過 (所以愛錯) 所以愛錯
(我從哪裡起飛) 愛錯愛錯愛錯 Baby
(多少不能原諒的錯) Oh 請你原諒我的 愛錯

Again and Against

Again…

There is nothing you really want to shout and whine about…

When you know actually you are alone…

When you know that everything around you is going against you…

When you know even the whole world is going against you…

 

Against…

There is nothing you can do about it…

Because this is the cruelty…

Because this is realistic…

Because this is how different people can treat each other…

 

Remember today how you treated me…

Although I might be useless as you said…

But don’t ever let me having the day in succeeding…

Definitely I will treat you back kind enough… more than kind enough…

As if there is no law, there is no ethics and moral.

Because what you said and did today definitely out of those categories either…

 

Temper… Temperament… Temperature…

So you having much nowadays huh?

I am so negligible in you… Sad to hear if that’s true.

Idiot

So… I am finding trouble myself…

AKA “High Blood Pressure” mentally…

Sigh…

Now I somewhat understand… His pain…

No… I am not till the extent of saying FML yet…

But just… WTF, why am I so idiot to even try to make a point…

But I still would…

Allegiance and Conflict

“Conflict of interest? No… I have interest in conflict.”- GDI Captain Nick Parker (Havoc)

Ermmm so… Just a quote for opening by the way… So actually I quite moody maybe, or maybe not for this…

Let’s get it started… Conflicts, not cornflakes…

For cornflakes, you take it because you just want it for breakfast or anything else you could say…

For conflicts, for god sake it happens just to show how one side is brainless and pointless in an argument? No no… These few days, maybe just got some in mind…

Her interest… My interest… Interesting, not? But then… I have been trying hard to ask myself to shut up and stop commenting… And also, stop asking something…

But I can’t really just see her going like that… Going into the inferno, the devil’s pit, the ever fiery core of Sheogh.

And on the other side, he insists Law and Order, instead of Good and Mercy, but the Light seems going sway… But then there is certain similarities between us.

Honestly… Am I that worthless and bad?

But still appreciate what you gave…

 

“Choose your allegiance, the noble House of Atreides, the insidious House of Ordos, or the evil House of Harkonnen.”- EVA

So ahem… Allegiance, or side…

Maybe just on different allegiance, or maybe same but different sub-faction…

But eventually hope it will be united under the same flag…

Hopefully you won’t be the one I left out, the House of Emperor Sardaukar.

Pack all in one

So it is some anniversary…
I can’t tell how much I appreciated it, probably.
But really glad that you are with me all times.

And so it is changes coming, back to degree level 2 again…
Yes again, for me probably…
Where some of my friends probably busy laughing…
Back to boring place, boring class again.

And so it is worries…
Can’t really care so much and know everything as I wanted to…
And all those happenings that I don’t know and won’t know in the workplace…

Well… At least I said what I can to you… But seems you really wished to continue and go on, I guess I have no choice but to accept and see either… Such company such policy, super ridiculous policy I said, and with such job scope. Sometimes really hoped you could understand earlier so you won’t go too far and deep, although it would be wise to just wish you good luck though, but I know I still wish you could came out of it as oppose of going on.

Sigh, why do the hard time always seems so long, and it has no guarantee that easy time coming after that.

Still same… Let the time brings me to the day of succeed… Everyone hopes…

Sigh

Hmmm…

A good planning yields success…

BUT

Maybe not on me for this time? Or every time?

A plan appears to be so good and nice in the afternoon, end up in ruins in the night. So who actually bombarded that plan to ruins? Me? You? Or brains?

 

Sigh… For the moment, I maybe actually brainless based on the point given by someone… But that point just not within the concern for me, but for someone…

Sigh… For the moment, everyday a busy day for someone, and where I think a better free day is never there, it always has something to block my plan in the end where in the planning stages it actually sounds nice.

Sigh… For the moment, I wish to cry and fly.

Sigh… For the moment, even the last weekend of my holiday will be bad again?

Sigh… For the moment, why god you just can’t give me a good whole day with someone.

 

Although not really wanted to say this… But for a moment again, FML this time. Frustrated every time like this… Looks like I need to get REAL USED TO IT.

Not during the busy… Not during the free time… Ermmm, so?…

Butthurt? Good Move? Proton Inspira?

So from the title… You guessed it… It is about the Proton Waja upcoming replacement model…

Butthurt, may refer to those proud Mitsubishi Lancer variant owners…

As the Waja replacement model will be using exactly what the Lancer is, except with some necessary tweaks like badge changes, and a new front bumper to further differentiate it.

It is called Proton Inspira by the way according to sources, and it comes with 3 variants currently, with 2 engine options.

It is known that both are from Global Engine Manufacturing Alliance (GEMA), means engine co-developed between alliances of Mitsubishi, Hyundai, Chrysler. The 2.0 litre version pretty obviously to be 4B11 which the current Lancer is using, while the engine for 1.8 litre will be 4B10, with tentative power output is known.

1.8 Litre (143PS/177Nm)

5 Speed MT – RM79,999
CVT – RM86,999

2.0 Litre (155PS/199Nm)

CVT with Paddle Shift – RM93,999

 

Soft launch expected on 15 October 2010, with the official name will be up and booking starts the same on the day itself, with booking fees being RM1000. The official launch will be during 10 November 2010. Early bird bookings will also receive special 2 years free service and maintenance.

The first batch of the delivery will have all imported parts, as Proton will need time to locally source the parts to bring down the costs (ahem, will they even with local parts?), and a lot more customization to future batch such as the missing “teh-tarik hook” that Malaysian so like even on the driver side.

However no more 18 inches alloy like the Lancer GT, which would actually be a good move since the Lancer GT actually felt sluggish on initial pick up with the CVT on 18 inches alloy. Proton actually fitted in 16 inches alloy wrapped with Continental CC5 tyre.

And oh… Before the end, not to forget the re-designed suspension, Lotus Ride and Handling that make it far better than stock Lancer, although some sources from Paultan indicates otherwise, but I am pretty sure it is due to the 18 inches and the Advans from Yokohama that helped the Lancer to feel superior.

Well… The 5MT options appears to be nice though, sadly not the 2 Litre version.

Hundred to Zero : To the ground

All in a normal day with sunrise and sunset…

Everything is not in keep anymore…

Maybe I didn’t realize…

But this is how everything lost control…

Blasted back to the ground… Ground Zero

Luckily not by nuke… But nearly nuke, maybe in near future…

 

Keep it in dream now I should… At least…

I can’t forget that… That is how I like, from you…

I probably really will try not to say anymore…

Only hoping even sweet dream, won’t forever be dreams, but reality one day…

Prologue to post

A prologue…

To what is in the upcoming act…

Though the act not confirmed to be up or not…

I am still in the balancing stage…

 

To start this with…

For time being, I reckon myself to be the a very blasted idiot…

Listen, analyze, telling… Only works on others?

Instead of saying so… I say my skills actually sucks…

While talking can’t do… How bout text and words?

Nah… Looks like I failed my grammar and wordings either…

 

But to be fair and balance…

Other than saying so…

Ignore… And the words “Don’t know” is actually the ultimate skills and answer to everything, that I never realize. How good if I can use that in exam…

 

And to be real fair…

Maybe again, I should re-shuffle my mind…

And finally take a pen, draw a line…

What you like, what you can, what you don’t like, what you cannot… And vice versa on me…

 

AND FOR THE VERY FEW TIME THAT I WOULD DO

The true meaning I want to tell…

Is that too difficult? Is that what you mind and struggle much?

Something for nothing

The music and orchestra starts the hymn…

Bringing up the melody and beats along with the rhythm and rhyme…

Within the walls of the Silver Cities…

The arcane golden belt, the clouds…

Floating high in the sky…

The knowledge, the power, the explanation…

And the proud and grand cloud temple stands high before me…

 

Who am I?

I am just me… For you and for me…

Don’t think me that bad either…

Explain, preach… Doesn’t work…

 

“It is up to someone to decide if they have or utilize their wisdom or heart to learn, understand, and master. And it is definitely up to someone to decide if they want to share their wisdom by mentoring others.

 

No lies…

A true beating heart…

That will bleed and broken upon hurt…

 

DO DO DO DO DO DO DO DO DO DO DO DO DO You ♥ Me…

If that is the destiny…

I have learn it… So you have to…

 

Don’t unhappy…

Don’t angry…

Just tell me… As I will tell you…

 

“Listen to my story, this maybe our last chance.”

“This is my story, this is our story.”

“If we ever get separated, don’t worry, just whistle, I will come running, I promise.”

Fault

Maybe it is my fault to say so.

But maybe I just telling…

So to hope you could understand somehow…

 

I am clear, I am still being considerate…

I don’t want to be such bad one in your mind…

That’s why I choose to speak out still, though worrying…

 

If there are secrets, let it be none to us…

I don’t like it to be the seed of destruction…

I care…

 

I knew you have dissatisfactory in me…

I don’t know if I do good enough…

But if because that reason ruined me, that’s still me…

 

I liked and enjoyed…

When you being sweet…

And just we ourselves…

 

I didn’t regret…

I do what I can…

I hope you felt it…

 

I Miss You

I ♥ You

I Want You

Michelin Pilot Sport 3 Test Drive Review

As per title, courtesy of Khai Phin on his 4A-GE powered Corolla AE101.

So… For such a price, such rated Ultra High Performance (UHP) graded tyre, I have to say it is superb and it deserves the name.

Although the testing is short, but at least I made some daring moves which I normally don’t do on my Pilot Preceda.

The traction, the grip on dry nothing to complain in fact grip like hell, the confidence remains throughout  the corner at around 80-90 KM/H. The noise level, although reduced significantly but as usual, not top class but usually those that silent will have to compromise a little bit.

No chance to test any wet grip, but do run over some piles of water and turned at the very end of the corner, still maintained well.

Now come to the question of 195/50/R15… I wonder how it works 215/45/R17?

After all… Good price, good buy, good change… Kudos

End of September

So it is end of the month…

A very important month I say?

Gain and lost…

A very bad month too?

Because sick…

Can time don’t pass so fast?

Else… Just pass until the day I success? If ever there is…

 

Understanding, is just very important as usual.

Toleration, match just well.

 

Suppressing the light, sealing the darkness.

But there is always twilight at balance.

 

The story doesn’t necessary ends happy, but ends well enough…

However… Don’t be a sadist most of the time…

 

I miss you… I ♥ you… I want you…

But you seem… Just weird…

Senses… Thoughts… Understanding… Priorities…

Endless theories I have?

Endless reason for you to stand on own?

In fact, how it may be… You are the key to changes and hopes.

需要人陪……你……我

 

原来 王力宏 王天王你

也感觉到寂寞这东西了？

突破尺度而遭到公司困扰 但你坚持了你的MV尺度 有你的~

 

“闭上眼睛 就看不清 这双人床欠缺的温馨 谁能陪我直到天明 穿透这片 迷蒙寂静”

让我取暖

看起来朋友很多知心
的没几个而最关心的就是你
尤其在这些年后分开的
那么远感情就更难说出口

回程的机票在手也许明天就走
其实都可以更改的只要你开口
留我只要一个理由就能让我停留

别太晚别太乱别太烦
告诉我有没有人让你取暖
谈情感谈孤单谈平凡虽然
所有相聚都可能面对离散

下一晚下一站下一段
告诉我有没有人让你取暖
如果能再回到你身边那些走
在大街的日子多简单多自然

看起来朋友很多知心
的没几个而最关心的还是你 

回程的机票在手也
许明天就走除非是你留我

别太晚别太乱别太烦
告诉我有没有人让你取暖
谈情感谈孤单谈平凡虽然
所有相聚都可能面对离散

下一晚下一站下一段
告诉我有没有人让你取暖
如果能再回到你身边那些走
在大街的日子多简单多自然

一直到天黑了人
散了谁也都不要离开
一直到我们都相信了还有爱

别太晚别太乱别太烦
告诉我有没有人让你取暖
谈情感谈孤单谈平凡虽然
所有相聚都可能面对离散

下一晚下一站下一段
告诉我有没有人让你取暖
如果能再回到你身边那些走
在大街的日子多简单多自然

Hundred to Zero

My sweet dear…
Just a few days…
Like a too short dream?
That I keep recalling everyday…
That shall never fades in memory…

I promise I will learn…
I will learn to be in the way…
But so do you please? Don’t regret…
Don’t regret you ever treat me that good and sweet to me…
Being sweet little dear…

That’s how sweet I like… Now and ever…

Don’t ever feel otherwise of it please…

I cherish it a lot… Appreciate that no limits…

Hope you feel much the same…

And endless love to you…

对不起

对不起
对不起
对不起
对不起
对不起
对不起
对不起
对不起
对不起

给你的对不起。。。虽然弥补不了哪伤害，但还是对不起。

 

回到最初简单、甜甜的美好。。。

 

该来的会来？。。。顺意吧。。。

Growing stages

I think…

I actually really appreciate now… Further understand it…

Same thing… Different time, different age and so on… So do different thoughts afterwards…

I am glad that I actually grown up, to know all those changes.

I shouldn’t find troubles… Just happy days…

In return…

You too…

Sometimes, just don’t bother how people say about, really easier isn’t it?

A certain day

If there is a certain day…
Anytime anywhere, a certain bad day in the old times, perhaps even modern time, is to wake up finding the world is at war. This impact more to old times as civilian sometimes called to arms when the situation is really dire.

Here… A certain day
Where the world for me changed leaps and bounds… Where I suddenly enlightened… Where I suddenly feel I do have certain personality…

Here… A certain day
Where I will pray and hope for what I had… Will be forever eternal

4Ps

Phin
Ping
Peggy
Pua

So I am the alien P within… Resembling only my surname…
My real name lost its meaning already?

Lonely someone lonely blog

Oh my dear blog…
Sorry I am treating you like this…
You used to be some useful blog before this, along with all my words from hearts that I cannot manage to tell someone…
But recently you only bear my feelings…
I am sorry that I made you lost your purpose… Your once fame…
Many abandons and give up visiting you, making you lonely… I am utmost sorry.
I hope I someday can restore you…

你和我

Secret although addictive, attractive, and interesting… But do hope there isn’t any between a couples, any relationships.
秘密虽然很吸引，很让人好奇。。。但愿与希望哪不会出现太多在一段感情里。

Aishiteiru-Peggy-Nee-Chan
我爱你，黄小琪。

小琪（一）

小琪

希望你会记得实现你答应的哦

 

（可能的话，可以不要对我这么硬吗？）

好啦。。。总知道你会说看心情咯。。。

心（四）

惊喜？

失望？

了解？

介意？

好熟悉的字眼……

冲动地说一点点介意，因为真的……每个人都会吧，但过后就得慢慢放掉，因为爱她全部。

惊喜与失望……怎么现在发觉会能连在一起？

了解……希望会是真的，了解真正的你，你也以真正的你对待我。

To loved one

Sincerely, stop questioning me a while, while you are reading this, no matter how much you doubt me always. Seeds of doubts bring shed of tears.
当你读着这篇时，诚恳地希望你能停止质疑我一会儿，不管你平时如何不信任我。

There is always such time, where you are perfect in my sense of everything.
总有那时候，你在我心里是那么的完美。

And there is always such time like tonight, everything went opposite.
也有那么时候，就像今晚，全部都颠倒了。

But there will never be such time, I give up you because of that reason.
但不会有那时候，我会因为今晚的事而不再爱你。

Seldom there is such time, where things burns up my anger, people just don’t know the pain and hurt, when the dagger isn’t stabbing them.
更少见的是，会有这些事燃起我收起已久的脾气。古月有云，那些不知所谓的人，他们不知道那伤痛，因为箭不刺在他们身上。

And I hope you will always have such time, to understand the reason why I tell you so, and appreciate it somehow.
但愿你会有这么那一段时间，明白与了解我的为你。

And why I serious… Because this is what I lack? And because I am serious onto you?
至于为什么突然这么认真，或许是一直以来的事，只是说了出来，因为真的在乎。

This is my life? And I want to see you in every of it?
这是我，就是我……因为你是重要的一部分。

Maybe I got you into some pressure, I tried to keep it down for days, but your distance is getting far like as if it is on rocket engine.
我知道，有很多时候你觉得压力了。但感觉上你的距离越来越远了，而且是神速般，所以我必需告诉你我想的。

I really just want things to be better and appear normal, and although I am not earning anything extra, I still can afford what it appears normal to be.
我仍然记得，我答应你的事，可是有时候那正是你不想面对的？事情总要变好，就会正常。

I have failed much before, but I don’t want any regret with you.
我失败了很多次，但对你我真的不想了。

I somehow feel happy and grateful with their supports (you know who).
当她们说出支持的言论时，我顿时感觉开心与感激。

I am glad that we share much common friends, though your sense of priority a bit… well.
庆幸的是，你我的朋友圈大致上相同，有了特别的一点。

Much to say, but wish and prefer you would talk to me in real… For now, I care, I love you.
千言万语说不尽，但望你会愿意与我谈心。总之……我在乎、我爱你, 小琪

 

P/S: 读了不要生气好吗？

心（三）

不开心 没心情

虽然我不应该这样

也没权力这样

但我就是会这样

即使知道我没有理由

可能 也是闷导致的？

 

也许 我迟早都要学会这种道理

爱你

 

备注：以上言论算是骂自己想不通。

 

有些时候，我还真的不会很多东西。

有很多时候，发觉喜欢少人简单的和你一起，但并非不热闹。或许其实是一直以来的事。

心（二）

原来 我也会情绪不定的

不说真的都没发觉 哈哈

原来 我也会说这么多梦话

只不过可能都是同一个人的名字

 

发觉到了 睡醒时最情绪不定、最不安

太想念？嗯……

没那么简单？

或许我是不知道

但我略懂你在想你在担心的

你每次那担心的眼神

好像有很多想法

你没说出来吧？

 

真的没那么简单

很多影响你情绪

很多影响你想法

但我应该会谅解

 

对不起

希望我的出现

并不是那么坏

心神交乱的早晨

一个人 不怎么特别的 去麦当劳享用早餐

其实 在哪时候 对着盘中的麦满分与咖啡

发呆着 想起了一些事 有点郁闷

可惜 没办法 那叫不醒凯斌

 

其实应该会累……只是暂时不觉得

 

说不出的不同

隔了空间的你 面对面的你
就是说不出的不同
看来 我还不是白想的
多多少少 都会有某些原因
令你想得多 影响了你 造就了那说不出的不同
我明白
但希望时间过了 你就会好起来

我不会说不在意 因为的确或多或少会有的
或许没有权力这么说吧
因为也可能 我不知道的事 实在还有太多 远比我所能想象

不过还是 谢谢你 黄小琪

心（一）

我知道 我其实会在意

我知道 我应该这样想

不过

真的

迟早都要学会

不要这样执著

还有很多很多的…………

Out of Boringness (Repost & Continuation & Changes)

* indicates lost
*Khai Phin’s Honda City SX8 (Civic EF) (5 Speed Manual)
D13B 1.3 SOHC 16 Valves VTEC-E (82PS@6300RPM/104Nm@3500RPM)

Khai Phin’s Toyota Corolla SEG Limited AE101 (4 Speed Auto with 1 Overdrive)
4A-GE 1.6 DOHC 20 Valves VVT (165PS@6800RPM/162Nm@5600RPM)

Tzmin’s Perodua Myvi EZi (4 Speed Auto with 1 Overdrive)
K3-VE 1.3 DOHC 16 Valves DVVT (87PS@6000RPM/116Nm@3200RPM)

Charles’s Perodua Kelisa SE EZi (4 Speed Auto with 1 Overdrive)
EJ-VE 1.0 DOHC 12 Valves DVVT (61PS@6000RPM/90Nm@3600RPM)

Zero’s Honda City VTEC (Continuously Variable Transmission)
L15A 1.5 SOHC 16 Valves VTEC-E (111PS@5800RPM/142Nm@4800RPM)

Zero’s Honda City i-VTEC (5 Speed Auto with 2 Overdrives)
L15A 1.5 SOHC 16 Valves i-VTEC (120PS@6600RPM/145Nm@4800RPM)

Zero’s Honda Civic i-VTEC (5 Speed Auto with 2 Overdrives)
K20Z2 2.0 DOHC 16 Valves i-VTEC (155PS@6800RPM/188Nm@4800RPM)

Peggy’s Inokom Getz (4 Speed Auto with 1 Overdrive)
G4EE 1.4 DOHC 16 Valves (71PS@6000RPM/125Nm@3200RPM)

Peggy’s Proton Saga Campro IAFM (4 Speed Auto with 1 Overdrive)
S4PE 1.3 DOHC 16 Valves IAFM (94PS@6000RPM/120Nm@4000RPM)

Yu Peng’s Toyota Unser (4 Speed Auto with 1 Overdrive)
7K-E 1.8 OHV 8 Valves (81PS@4600RPM/147Nm@3200RPM)

Yu Peng’s Honda City i-VTEC (5 Speed Auto with 2 Overdrives)
L15A 1.5 SOHC 16 Valves i-VTEC (120PS@6600RPM/145Nm@4800RPM)

简单的复杂

看起来很简单的 但一个人想起时 又浮现复杂元素

原来我不知不觉 忽略了第三势力

长久以来 原来走过的痕迹 已经让第三势力发现

因此而开始捉摸军情 并向她方进行报告

好在第三势力并非敌军 所以不至于影响军心

 

回到正常的白话文

我不知道为何 想起一些事情

竟然会莫名其妙地落泪流泪

也不知道为何 开始担心一些未想过的事情

不知道该从哪儿开始

 

“材米油盐酱醋茶，没有一个理由，活得那么复杂”

或许，简单的复杂，我总会、总得找到答案，也希望哪放晴美好的一天。

 

P/S: 黄小琪，不要学她了 = = 好吗？ @@

血腥的恋人

女生是剑道社的会员 但个性内向 在学校跟朋友都没什么交流 就除了男生
但有一天 女生格外的不同 在校里显得性情大方 与每个同学都滔滔不绝
放学后 女生主动约了一大班朋友去玩乐至夜
归时 女生独自行走 但遇上了匪徒
匪徒欲劫财 但见女生毫无反抗 就起了劫色之念
女生也毫无反抗 但在哪一刹那 突然挥起了木剑 没两下子就把匪徒给敲死
这时男生经过 把女生抱起给予安抚 女生此刻落泪 不敢相信那一刹那的经过

第二天 男生到校时 女生问：“你不会觉得我很恐怖吗？”
男生道：“不会啊，那是你必须的自卫罢了，况且警方也相信了。”
女生回：“谢谢你这么信任我……我爱你。”

接着 挥起了真剑 一剑把男生封喉
事罢说了一句 “原来真剑比木剑好得多了，不必像木剑那么费力。”
舔干了剑上的血，女生的长发在风中飘扬下离开了。

感言敢言

不知道是什么原因 会让我敢说清楚

在那一时刻 感觉上我好像不是我了

很感谢你会愿意聆听 也希望你相信

 

“习惯导致不习惯”-（凯斌，2010）

 

希望。。。会好

我错了?

我做错了吗？

为什么每一次都会受到这样的待遇？

唉。。。爱。。。

 

原来，我没发现，那墙上的楷体名字，贴了十一年的，已经掉了。

那会是象征不吉利的事情吗？好像是吧？

眼看已经发生了，虽然可能不是什么大事，影响力却很大很广。

 

可能，我不应该想的，就算时间到了，机会也不大吧，反正我就只成功那一次。

但是，暂时希望能够和往常一样的过就很好了。

原来，她的我的好朋友都看出来了，真没想到的，只是没问出来。

 

我不才，不像其他人写的五颜六色，七彩缤纷，八面玲珑，格外吸引，并且能够带入主题想法。

我只会，想到什么写什么，次序还乱七八糟，没深入研究语文就会哪样。

 

无缘无故地想回以前，在网上看到的照片。。。

很羡慕，很向往，会是我吗？

经过的一点一滴，就好想在昨天。。。

 

那凯旋门的斌仕

是时候学一学了

 

“北风毫不留情，把叶子吹落”

“整个冬天，北风的痛没人能说”

“我从来没想过，我会这样做”

“多少不能原谅的错”

 

爱小丽琪丝

没想到

没想到 真没想到

会变成这样

没关系 要懂 是自己问题

 

希望她会谅解少些

 

也希望他快从恶魔火焰中逃出来

诱惑实在太多了

我依然“可爱”

看来我还是一样

依然可怜没人爱

 

算了

希望不要受到那么冷的对待就好了

虽然惯了

但毕竟不好受

 

下次还是什么都不要说的好？

不知道的事。。。不知道的是？

你的好 我知道 我想要
因为知道你的好
所以知道我想要
但因为你不知道
所以不可能得到
也因为如你知道
会什么也得不到

你知道吗？
你会意吗？
你明白吗？

你知道你就是她吗？

可爱~~可怜没人爱

好久没有的聚会 或许是我而已

我还是这个样子 还是变了少许

说话 思想 个性 变得或好或劣

没关系啊没关系 只能继续学习

 

我失败多少次 才能取得成就

我需要改什么 方能赢她芳心

我必需怎么样 才能不酱“可爱”

我能够做什么 方能不再孤独

 

可爱的你 可爱的她

但“可爱”的我

对不起 我爱你 我爱你

希望您 不

希望我 可以变成你可爱的我

Lee Hom : The 18 Martial Arts

十八般武藝 (The 18 Martial Arts) is the 14th album of American Taiwanese artist and composer, Alexander Wang Lee Hom. The album was released on August 12, 2010.

Track List:

1. Dragon Dance
2. 杜 U ♥ Me
3. 十八般武藝
4. 你不知道的事
5. 伯牙絕弦
6. 柴米油鹽醬醋茶
7. 美
8. 需要人陪
9. 天涯海角
10. 你不知道的事 (宋晓青 版本）
11. 自己人

自己人

自己人
作曲：王力宏
填词：王力宏/崔惟楷

 

上帝你在哪里 人们被甚么疏离 饥饿战争暴力
天堂的眼泪 是否流干了
太阳晒他肩膀上 跑得太快但他不知道方向
家被烧完回不去 多少悲伤震撼大地

看见你 听不见我声音 被抛弃 太多黑暗的回忆
如何搜寻 所有的希望 都在哪里 在哪里

为什么 为什么 明明都是自己人 为何把自己当成了敌人
远方的 孩子们 通通都是自己人 自己人的爱不该再疑问

野心变了贪心 自私泛滥成疾病
即使领了高薪 还买不了幸福的婚姻
老公回来了脾气差 老婆从没梦过
怎么会是他 边哭着边报警
欺骗了朋友 欺骗自己 如果没有了谁输谁赢

看见你 听不见我的声音 发现你 并不爱惜你自己
不要忘记 所有的希望 都在这里 在这里

为什么 为什么 明明都是自己人 为何把自己当成了敌人
远方的 孩子们 通通都是自己人 自己人的爱不该再疑问

你不知道的事 （宋晓青 版本）

你不知道的事 （宋晓青 版本）
作曲：王力宏
填词：王力宏

 

蝴蝶眨几次眼睛 才学会飞行
夜空洒满了星星 但几颗会落地

一辈子有多少次叹息 遇见你我无法呼吸
这都是 你不知道的事。。。
这都是 你不知道的事。。。

天涯海角

天涯海角
作曲：王力宏
填词：王力宏/小牛

 

醒来后只是梦境 才发现身边没你
原来最残忍的是想象力
醒来后清楚听见 寂寞在耳边叹息
寻觅安抚我的声音

*没有你 我的世界失去了色彩
没有你 我对生命失去了期待
没有你 我宁愿永远沉睡不要醒来

我愿意走过天涯飞过海角
只要能够守候在你身边
我愿意用这辈子让你相信
这就是唯一 幸福结局*

拉开紧闭的窗帘 以为能暂时抽离
阳光却让失落更清晰
我想要夺门而去 彷佛再多等一秒钟就会来不及

Repeat *

醒来以后 我身边没你
最残忍的 是想象力
清楚听见 寂寞在叹息
寻觅安抚的声音

我愿意走过天涯飞过海角
只要能够守候在你身边
我愿意用这辈子让你相信
这就是唯一 幸福的结局
幸福的结局
我愿意走过天涯飞过海角
幸福的结局
这就是唯一 幸福的结局

需要人陪

需要人陪
作曲：王力宏
填词：王力宏

 

打开窗户让孤单透气
这一间屋子如此密闭
欢呼声仍飘在空气里
像空无一人一样华丽

我 渐渐失去知觉
就当做是种自我逃避
你 飞到天的边缘
我也不猜落在何地

一个我 需要梦想 需要方向 需要眼泪
更需要 一个人来点亮天的黑
我已经 无能为力 无法抗拒 无路可退
这无声的夜 现在的我 需要人陪

闭上眼睛 就看不清
这双人床 欠缺的温馨
谁能陪我 直到天明
穿透这片 迷蒙寂静

我 渐渐失去知觉
就当做是种自我逃避
你 飞到天的边缘
我已不猜落在何地

一个我 需要梦想 需要方向 需要眼泪
更需要 一个人来点亮天的黑
我已经 无能为力 无法抗拒 无路可退
这无声的夜 现在的我 需要人陪

一个我 需要梦想 需要方向 需要眼泪
更需要 一个人来点亮天的黑
我已经 无能为力 无法抗拒 无路可退
这无声的夜 现在的我 需要人陪

美

美
作曲：王力宏
填词：王力宏/崔惟楷

 

*你这么美 你这么媚 你这么美 你这么美 美 美 妹妹
你这么美 你这么媚 你这么美 美 美 妹妹

你是寒冬里的花蕾 你是西施搅乱 了春水
你是天使般的恩惠 你是我宠爱的贵妃
世间的伤悲 全都被你摧毁
你是美酒千杯 我怎能不醉
不小心爱上 Oh你的香味
只有你 占据了视线 其它的 我都看不见
这是爱情或 这是对你的迷恋

你这么美 你这么媚 你这么美 你这么美 美 美 妹妹
你这么美 你这么媚 你这么美 美 美 妹妹*

Repeat *

怎么那么美
是你让我想入非非 想当一个偷心雅贼
爱已萌芽 万分珍贵 没有时间可以浪费
我愿意用生命换一个机会 让我吻上你的嘴
Hablo Espanol 给你拉丁味道 你的美就是一种美好
别责怪我的一点冒昧 我想陪你度过年年岁岁
你太美 你太媚 为了你我能征服大江南北
沉鱼落雁 难望你项背
文字不足 形容你的美
嘿 宝贝给我你的拥抱 让我永远珍藏你的美

怎么那么美
你这么美 你这么媚 你这么美 你这么美 美 美 妹妹
你这么美 你这么媚 你这么美 美 美 妹妹
你这么美 你这么媚 你这么美 你这么美 美 美 妹妹
你这么美 你这么媚 你这么美 美 美 妹妹

柴米油盐酱醋茶

柴米油盐酱醋茶
作曲：王力宏
填词：徐若瑄

 

小时候 你想要什么
我要一台 大大蓝色的飞机
带我环游世界 到地球每一个角落
在蓝天白云中穿梭

而长大以后 我想要什么
我要一台小小红色答录机
和你一起录下 喂？我们现在不在家
蓝色变成红色因 为你

柴米油盐酱醋茶~
一点一滴都是幸福在发芽

月儿弯弯爱的傻
有了你什么都 不差

小时候 你想要什么
我要一台 大大蓝色的飞机
带我环游世界 去地球每一个角落
在蓝天白云中穿梭

喔 长大以后 我想要什么
我要一台小小红色答录机
和你一起录下 喂？我们现在不在家
蓝色变成红色因 为你

柴米油盐酱醋茶~
一点一滴都是幸福在发芽

月儿弯弯爱的傻
有了你什么都 不差

给你快乐无论白天黑夜
握紧双手就算刮风下雨
我就是要你 要你待在我身边 保护你直到永远

柴米油盐酱醋茶~
一点一滴都是幸福在发芽

月儿弯弯爱的傻
有了你什么都 不差

月儿弯弯爱的傻
没有一个理由 活的那么复杂
有了你什么都 不差

伯牙绝弦

伯牙绝弦
作曲：王力宏
填词：五月天阿信

 

知人知面 知己知彼 又知心 古人说 这就是所谓知音
相知相惜 相亲相爱 也相忆 朋友你 会不会常把我想起
何年何月 何日何时 再相聚 何时能 把酒言欢畅回忆
很多很多 很深很深 的回忆 很多歌我只想要为你唱起

春秋时期 远近知名伯牙琴艺 沉鱼也出水 马儿仰秣聆听
聆听 寂寞 的声音 举世知名 不如 一个知音
直到子期 闻琴解开伯牙心境 高山流水 风景似有灵悉
高山青 流水静 如镜 无言却胜过有言的天地

听 宫 商 角 徵 羽 那歌词未写上的是 弦外的延长音
斟一杯酒 一抱拳 一句关心 在
千年之后 再延续 不变的旋律
当 春 雪 融 夏 景 秋风为我捎封信
冬 冬锣隆冬墙 冬 冬锣隆隆冬墙墙
又是思念的四季

知人知面 知己知彼 又知心 古人说 这就是所谓知音
相知相惜 相亲相爱 也相忆 朋友你 会不会常把我想起
何年何月 何日何时 再相聚 何时能 把酒言欢畅回忆
很多很多 很深很深 的回忆 很多歌我只想要为你唱起

某年某月 某天伯牙再访子期 风景依旧绿 子期却已归西
触景 触琴 即伤情 伯牙绝弦 只因再无知音
千年过去 当我再度拨弄琴韵 更多冷箭 更多冷言冷语
请你听 请轻轻 倾听 唱给我永远不离弃的知音

听 宫 商 角 徵 羽 那歌词未写上的是 弦外的延长音
斟一杯酒 一抱拳 一句关心 在
千年之后 再延续 不变的旋律
当 春 雪 融 夏 景 秋风为我捎封信
冬 冬锣隆冬墙 冬 冬锣隆隆冬墙墙
又是思念的四季

知人知面 知己知彼 又知心 古人说 这就是所谓知音
相知相惜 相亲相爱 也相忆 朋友你 会不会常把我想起
何年何月 何日何时 再相聚 何时能 把酒言欢畅回忆
很多很多 很深很深 的回忆 很多歌我只想要为你唱起

你不知道的事

你不知道的事
作曲：王力宏
填词：王力宏/瑞业

 

*蝴蝶眨几次眼睛 才学会飞行
夜空洒满了星星 但几颗会落地

我飞行 但你坠落之际
很靠近 还听见呼吸
对不起 我却没捉紧你

你不知道我为什么离开你
我坚持不能说放任你哭泣
你的泪滴 像倾盆大雨 碎了满地
在心里清晰

你不知道我为什么狠下心
盘旋在你看不见的高空里
多的是 你不知道的事*

Repeat *

我飞行 但你坠落之际

你不知道我为什么离开你
我坚持不能说放任你哭泣
你的泪滴 像倾盆大雨 碎了满地
在心里清晰

你不知道我为什么狠下心
盘旋在你看不见的高空里
多的是 你不知道的事

十八般武艺

作曲：王力宏
填词：王力宏/崔惟楷

 

*是 我是不是 又在创造未来
是不是我又在 让情绪更 High
带动全场的观众朋友？ 是
是不是 还在不断学习
无论什么民族 或什么阶级
继续让我灵感源源不绝？ 是

唱 最动听的旋律给你 让你所有的烦恼
所有的单调 往你的背后扔掉
是，这是 Chinked-Out 交响乐 送到全世界
又更新一遍 什么时候歇 到你精疲力竭 嘿*

#送你的十八般武艺 就是无二独一
世人都在注意 看傻的十八般武艺
多么不可思议 其实都是为你
看傻 为你得来多么不易的十八般武艺
期盼你能点头 来肯定我的努力#

Repeat *###

杜 U ♥ Me

杜 U ♥ Me
作曲：王力宏
填词：王力宏/崔惟楷

 

*眼睛看我 看看我的眼睛
想问问你 问你一个问题
你你我我 还在演什么戏
戏如人生 还是人生如戏

你爱的人 到底是不是我
是否真正的我 是另一个样子
如果你愿意 我卸下我的面具
给你我的全部 全部的我都给你

你挑着胆 我牵着马
迎来日出 送走晚霞

给我一个反应 喊喊我的名字
美猴王的魅力 推前浪的行着
还在努力 找传说中的幸福
一句道白 让你听的清楚*

#杜 U Love ME?
说说 你爱我到什么程度
杜 U Want ME?
说说 你要我到什么地步
让我相信 你的动心
为什么我还是 无法觉得真心？
杜杜杜杜杜杜杜杜
杜杜杜杜 杜 U Love ME?#

Repeat *##

Dragon Dance

Dragon Dance
作曲：王力宏
填词：王力宏

 

欢迎来到 我的国度
十八般武艺 十八种元素
一新的耳目 音乐的武术
和你们恋爱 是我的幸福

舞龙舞狮 把气氛干热
代表 我的戏码要马上开始
Hit ‘em with the sh other artist can’t spit
提醒着 他们为什么 我为什么永远 don’t quit

A plan to Japan

A possible trip to Japan after so many years since I last visited…

However the difference is…

This time no one going with me…

Khai Phin, Peggy, Alice… All seems not possible :(

Maybe I just end up giving up in the end then.

Last Paper for UC1F0910BMP

Yes, Legal Environment of Business paper soon in the afternoon…
The 4 months crash course will completed with the final paper…
The results expected to be bad, as I am quite not in motivation for this crash course…
And yet during exam rarely I can’t write a single question… Sigh…
But what done is done, just hope to pass through.

And I quite realized that one of my student in Command & Conquer 3 Tiberium Wars, actually put a quite lot effort in playing, but in wrong sense. Khai Phin during early time, he played in that way which I say good, but now become a hobby to repeat the same game, same style against AI, and even go for Brutal one. I might say good move for some time if it is 1v1, but heck he went for 4v4, which will give him wrong sense that he is playing well. Well I said I should stop commenting, but then I really should praise that he is not getting boring by repeating everyday. One who so confident that playing AI is good will keep refusing to play with a real player?
Funny? Not maybe for him…
However, this I must really praise him, for practicing such hotkeys… Which I don’t see it as a key to victory against anyone. But who cares, he looks good in pressing the F1 to F9 button.
Well, maybe let him win a real player will boost his confidence.

Cyber-space

So probably this term may sound easy to all, but if asked during exam not much could probably give a good definition.

However that’s not the concern.

Recently someone just like to spam and annoy on my cbox…

I wonder if my friends hired someone to annoy me on my blog…

OR

There really someone out there trying to do some cyber-space crime against my blog…

Naza World walk

So I don’t know what is the purpose to bring me there to see the dreamed Mugen RR, although 2nd hand but still priced RM348,000. Well, dad not going to get one for me either, not even the normal Civic Type R but then I should just keep quiet, those money isn’t mine, nor did I earn it isn’t it? Perhaps my brother did? Lolz…

Well… At least I got to see it real?

So now… Audi R8 and Lamborghini Gallardo Superleggera LP560 in his mind… Which one to take? Bah… Not my business…

复杂的心情（三）

或许我有意愿 或许我有想法

但我知道重要性

我不想摧毁那信任与自由

那一片海阔天空

复杂的心情（二）

欲哭无泪？

还好啦。。。只是不能哭而已，因为某种原因，可以说是一种连医生都解释不了的现象。

算了？我应该还好。不要做太多的梦就好。要不然会被人笑。

更远的是，会被人讨厌。

眼泪笑了

 

比想象中更痛 你真的没回头
我命令眼泪不许失控

回忆不跟你走 都挤在我心中
我就有责任让它值得被珍重

谢谢你曾让我难过
谢谢我没有想太多
当爱情左盼右顾的时候

我眼泪都笑了 谁还想哭呢
再勇敢的站着 找回光和热
面对你的时候 我不会舍不得
因为你已是过客 因为路有些曲折
是美的

心碎成了沙漠 就快开凿绿洲
我没有时间不知所措

你温柔的双手 本就不属于我
又何必在乎它以后属于谁呢

谢谢你曾让我难过
谢谢我没有想太多
当爱情左盼右顾的时候

我眼泪都笑了 谁还想哭呢
再勇敢的站着 找回光和热
面对你的时候 我不会舍不得
因为你已是过客 因为路有些曲折

你眼泪都笑了 谁还会哭呢
来不及完美的 就唱首骊歌
想起你的时候 我不是卑微的
反而我没有遗憾 因为我已爱过你
深深的

复杂的心情

其实没什么

但是好像又有很多复杂的东西

但我知道是自己在想（废话）

然而就这样

想说不能说 想要不敢要

还会想回以前 好像很矛盾

心理脑海中都在打架

 

笨蛋 白痴 傻瓜

我不可能的啦

我就这样告诉我自己

鲁冰花

我知道 半夜的星星会唱歌
想家的夜晚 它就这样和我一唱一和

我知道 午后的清风会唱歌
童年的蝉声 它总是跟风一唱一和

当手中握住繁华
心情却变得荒芜
才发现世上一切都会变卦

当青春剩下日记
乌丝就要变成白发
不变的就只有那首歌
在心中来回地唱

啊~~~啊~~~
夜夜想起妈妈的话
闪闪的泪光鲁冰花
天上的星星不说话
地上的娃娃想妈妈
天上的眼睛眨呀眨
妈妈的心呀鲁冰花
家乡的茶园开满花
妈妈的心肝在天涯
夜夜想起妈妈的话
闪闪的泪光鲁冰花

啊~~~啊~~~
夜夜想起妈妈的话
闪闪的泪光鲁冰花

啊~~~啊~~~
夜夜想起妈妈的话
闪闪的泪光~~~

敢爱不能爱

不敢爱的。。。怕失败，有点理所当然。但怕失败也就已经失败？

敢爱的。。。听天由命，一切就看双方造化？

但

敢爱、想爱但却不得已不能爱的呢？是否也是失败？

个人的人格问题？

一些朋友的关系？

或从来就没有被对方放在心里过？

对方根本就不喜欢？

Calm?

Finally a smile after so long, fake or real at least it is there maybe?

Sorry for such short post, got much stuffs in mind again… Hard to elaborate just like in exam…

Anyway hope you all liked the song 轨迹 in previous post… Pretty straightforward and hope you all understand the underlying meaning.

Sorry for the lower quality choice of video, because all other is analog version with only 1 side sound.

轨迹

怎么隐藏我的悲伤 失去你的地方
你的发香散得匆忙 我已经跟不上

闭上眼睛还能看见 你离去的痕迹
在月光下一直找寻 那想念的声音

如果说分手是苦痛的起点 那在终点之前我愿意再爱一遍
想要对你说的不敢说的爱 会不会有人可以明白？

我会发着呆 然后忘记你 接着紧紧闭上眼
想着那一天 会有人代替 让我不再想念你

我会发着呆 然后微微笑 接着紧紧闭上眼
又想了一遍 你温柔的脸 在我忘记之前

心里的眼泪 模糊了视线 你已快看不见

忘不了

没有忘不了的事情，只有忘不了的心情？

偏偏对我而言，两者都忘不了。

时间，或长或短。。。经过的事情，含有的心情。

改变了结果吗？

讨厌事实吗？或者是讨厌现实？

是，不是，对，不对，爱，不爱。

Meaning but not intended

Sincerely regret, and wish to apologize and recover from the situation.

That’s the meaning to convey, but never intended it to happen. Just another way of saying or stating.

Sincerely hope you are not angry at it.

Honda Global Amity Exclusive Civic Type R Test Drive

Indeed a very exclusive and rare opportunity, Honda Global Amity despite having 6 units of Civic Type R in stock, decided to request the test drive unit from Honda Malaysia and they did succeed in doing so, attracted much people to the event.

The event itself accompanied with the soft launch of the Civic 1.8 S-L, technically same theory as the Accord 2.0 VTi-L…

Well, KP, Peggy, Alice are kind enough to accompany me to the event, with me and KP testing the Civic Type R.

I was well informed that not to put too much expectation as the test drive unit is severely damaged before, and indeed the feelings are totally different than the original Type R of my brother. The acceleration is weird as with the engine sound, brakes worn off, clutch didn’t engage as it should be.

Nevertheless, it should be a good opportunity for KP to test although he seems to excited and got off to dangerous track show, other than that the drive was smooth.

The day should be fine enough, with a visit to WCG… What a memory, the stage the players… 2 years ago, when I am one of them… But no more, never regret, I did what I wanted that year.

BUT NOW

The day seems didn’t end so well… At least in my perception, as my previous post got deciphered and accidentally leaked.

AND THIS IS REGRET

Words from heart

IEOIIEHAKPMHNDEYNEEOWIROGTPINBWGIELGA

IYMKLECDWEHSTKOOSAUTOLNBICINOGUPCNEVSTHEGD

Good things always difficult?

Girls… Studies… Gaming alike…

A very short one, finally a decent place to play with friends nicely

BUT

It is far in Bandar Bukit Tinggi, Klang. The cyber cafe specification just nice, but infested with low class DOTA players.

Challenges (TW Version)

Although I am not any top or world class player in Command & Conquer 3 Tiberium Wars, but somehow I should stand firm still against any normal challenges.

BUT

Here RICO came out with a crazy idea albeit challenge, to handicap ownself for 30% against a Hard AI, with 40000 starting credits.

The result is expected none other than bitter defeat…

However, the same situation but with 10000 starting credits default, I managed to complete the impossible like they said, with KP getting the almost the right idea in the end of gameplay.

Well, next time when free I shall try the 40000 credits… Although  I think I might fail there but I hope not.

我不落泪，但情绪零碎

很直接。

但是还是同样的理由，我很闷。这个闷有两边的意思，一个指我的本性，一个指我很久以来的状况。

或者

她连一个聪明，爱说笑来讨她欢心，喜欢捣蛋但脾气怪的男生都可以有这样的下场。

我最好就不要想也不用想，这方法挺聪明吧？

还有，最近要看好是否有错字。

不过。。。重点是我要说，很多时候我真的没什么了不起，压根儿地说，根本我喜欢的从来都没有一个会对我有兴趣。

最近很怪，也许。。。

好像不只是回忆，感觉上好像多了很多想法，甚至在梦里也会出现。。。像被灌输了东西。。。但我还不能看见未来= =

Inner Desire

Everyone has got inner desire.

Just a matter of time that they will realize it, consciously or unconsciously.

Different ways of expressing and realizing.

What are the recent dreams? The unfinished word?

Can I have a complete answer soon? But sometimes it may be a bad idea to know. Mood is hard to catch.

However the above is somewhere between conscious and unconscious.

 

The conscious one, all those I mentioned by word.

And some very interesting and for fun, Best of 3 series match between Yu Peng and KP.

Secondary Brief Write Through

Those days…

Now become so relax and simple… Even more with the license in hand…

Maybe a girl I should have gone for… Maybe a girl I should have not gone for…

Maybe a subject I should have not give up… Maybe I should have do well in everything else…

And maybe I shouldn’t maybe now…

Many I want to tell here, but not without someone beside me now…

Academy Principal

Knowledge is Power, Power is Freedom. All secrets will be discovered, and mastered in time.

Look…

I haven’t really achieve that… And never will I suppose… But ensure will keep me alive in certain situation.

“Study well when it is peace and harmony, rather than panic when it is war and chaos.”

The Girl Next Door?

Alright as if there is one but however title just a title for this time maybe?

You have to do something bad for doing and achieving something good?

You risk everything in certain circumstances just to regain something that is ahead in your life, equally important to what is of current.

You need to know, if the juice if worth the squeeze?

A girl, a hug, and a game…

OR

A guy, a hug, and a game…

Just someone, that will make you get out of yourself, to do and try what you never know, what you never unlock, that you long thought you never become like that. And he/she asks you “What is the craziest thing you’ve done lately?” And you can say “You~~ And everything”

Gentlemen… Gentledemon

Inspired from Kha-Beleth.
We use gentlemen to describe politeness in humans; however gentledemon simply reverses of that means of rudeness and pure evil.
Ok, it’s been another long hiatus.
First and foremost, the South Africa FIFA World Cup 2010 finally getting to the finale, in a way that many would relieved that this planned madness finally going to end, you need to give credit to them by making it so real just like WWE. Well, it is simple reason. South Africa is the host, but didn’t manage to go through group stage, now if you flip through World Cup history, you will find that none of the host ever failed to make it through group stages, with this time South Africa being the first. With South Africa out, FIFA expects nothing but drop of sales in tickets. To make it not so worse, this is why Netherlands journeyed this long into final. Take note and flash back, whenever there this is Netherlands game, the referee always will blow “Offside” to Netherlands opponent VALID and PROPER FIRST GOAL, giving Netherlands another chance and take caution in their weak defenses, very sorry to Uruguay and all Netherlands opponent before. Now why Netherlands? Geography and demography class time, South Africa second major population is Dutch, which means Netherlands people. With South Africa out, Netherlands definitely will become the second “Host” and favored by local people. This way, FIFA could ensure the interests of locals and protecting their sales.
I have to say… APIIT attendance system really crap, but nevertheless useful to make extra money and give trouble to students.
I have to mention… I have some “something” in mind that I cannot afford to tell, lest there will be a bad consequences.

最近（续）

六月三十了，我没有机会拥有一辆 Civic Type R 了。

发觉到了，原来我喜欢的，或许某种原因她们都不会选我。

虽然什么都应该去尝试，但危害自己的我还是选择不要。

原来，我的记忆力，全都在记一些很多人意想不到的东西。

能不能，给一个人了解及疼爱我。

也许，有时候他是对的，至少他有过这么好的女友。

所有的梦，我没办法成真与实现；有梦最美，希望相随。。。可是我真的没有答案。

最近

这个月，都没什么在更新部落格，还好吧？
不是没有事情，反倒很累，对很多人来说，无非是个失意之月但也充满惊喜。
赌球的。。。冷风不断，卜基垄断。
李湘嫔。。。手机不见，旧去新来。
陈凯斌。。。4A-GE，风采不再。
黄JD。。。遭人打劫，不寒而栗

小学聚会，往时的6A班，五十个人，出席仅有余十人，但我是缺席一份子。
关于这，还附了一个鬼怪好梦。梦见我们五十人，再度回到从前的班，一样的老师，一样位置。但阴差阳错，因为吵闹被老师鞭，那藤鞭竟然穿过我们，原来我们都已不是人。

手提电话无缘无故故障，幸好花了些钱就弄好，要不然又要从新适应别的手机。

最近睡觉也时常发梦，梦见都是别人幸福有人陪，自己还是这样。想一想，原来已经那么久没有女朋友，没有忘记感觉，只是想念有人疼有人爱的时候。

没女朋友，没梦想的车，没关系因为还活着。（废话来的）

很不明白凯斌的坚持、固执与想法。。。但更不明白那些人为什么可以就这样喝得烂醉，把别人的安危玩弄于手中，等到事发了以后才来后悔自己亲手把别人给予的信任给毁掉。

很久也没有搭飞机去旅行了，很想和朋友们搭个远途飞机去。

有不错的车，但我没有钱提升它的潜能，有钱提升了之后，我依然孤单。

我也不知道，反正我不知道我会想什么。。。

待续。。。

This long

If someone ask me, why I never posted a single thing this long…
Reason is I also don’t know how to express…
My birthday, special one? Not really… I failed… But at the same time it is special one though, I am not quite sad but just speechless and disappointed somehow, but not too long… However, I am happy seeing her happy.
And yes, from all what I see… She is totally different when with her group of friends… That’s what she is, and what I am a failure.

Khai Phin… Hope he can understand the situation, no right or wrong… But mindset stubborness can kill…

And as to me… What I wanted is not here… Maybe it is too much and greedy for me? I don’t know, I am pretty much not with my mind… I cannot sort out what I wanted to tell…

没有理由

我问：“真的那么难找个理由吗？”
她说：“那你爱我，又有理由吗？”
我说：“对，没有。。。但是希望你找到那个没有理由的理由。”

嫔。。。能否再想一想，给予我们一个机会？

回想谈话

真的很希望，我会从她的口中，受到最棒的礼物。
虽然反过来的话就会是最伤。
她那时问我：“你觉得我会答你什么？”
我回答：“我不能觉得你会答什么。但我当然会希望你会答我想要的，就答应成为我女朋友。那就是我生日最棒的礼物了。”
她说：“很好。。。我会想想的。。。你就慢慢等待那一天吧。”

所以，我除了希望还是希望。。。因为始终是她的想法，她的决定。

最伤的话，我也得面对。
最好的话，我对她说了一句很废的废话：“嗯，我希望你会很开心的告诉我咯。”
她说：“废话，难道要哭着跟你说吗？”

回想起来

回想起来。。。

嫔。。。原来我和你经历过了那么多的风风雨雨。。。

开心不开心都好。。。

特别是你那时重病入院时，一开始还真的反应不过来。

之前还一直带你去针疗，就希望会好转。。。看你走得一拐一拐地，就难免心痛心酸。

不过谢天谢地，现在的你总算是好很多了。。。

为什么会这样想起呢？

因为在网上找到一些别人留给你的祝福语。

我和你的时候，是最快乐的

我知道，这几天我很没有心情。。。

或许不是这几天，而是很多天。。。

我找不到理由来解释这一切。。。

我爱你。。。我想你。。。但我不知道会烦着你。。。

也不清楚你会怎样想。。。

很抱歉，对不起。。。虽然没有别一句，但绝对不是敷衍你。

我知道我很失败，总是弄你生气。

我知道我很失败，和你聊电话时，总是没什么讲，搞得你很想挂电话。

我知道我很失败，约你都不大会成功，想给你惊喜却让你受惊。

我知道我很失败，爱你这么久却不懂怎样才最好。

但是。。。
我再失落，伤心都好。。。
我依然希望着。。。
依然希望着，你接受我的一天，属于我们可以好好一起走下去的一天的到来。

因为我知道，我和你的时候，我就是最快乐的。

Jay Chou : The Era

跨時代 (The Era) is Jay Chou's 10th studio album, which was released on May 18, 2010. There are mainly 2 versions on sale which is shown below, along with the badges.

Track List:

1. 跨時代
2. 說了再見
3. 煙花易冷
4. 免費教學錄影帶
5. 好久不見
6. 雨下一整晚
7. 嘻哈空姐
8. 我落淚•情緒零碎
9. 愛的飛行日記
10. 自導自演
11. 超人不會飛

嘻哈空姐 was banned inside Mainland China, due to the content of the lyrics. This reaction was unexpected by the producers of the album and widely perplexing.

Lyrics courtesy of î Khai Phin (2010).

超人不會飛

超人不會飛
作曲：周杰倫
填詞：周杰倫
編曲：林邁可
監製：周杰倫

媽媽說很多事別太計較 只是使命感找到了我我睡不著
如果說罵人要有點技巧 我會加點旋律你會覺得超屌
我的槍不會裝彈藥（彈藥） 所以放心不會有人倒（人倒）
我拍青鋒俠不需要替身 因為自信是我繪畫的顏料

我做很多事背後的意義遠比你們想像
拍個電視劇為了友情與十年前的夢想
收視率再高也難抗衡我的偉大理想
因為我的人生無需再多一筆那獎項
我不知道何時變成了社會的那榜樣
被狗仔拍不能比中指要大器的模樣（怎樣）

我唱的歌詞要有點文化 因為隨時會被當教材
CNN能不能等英文好一點再訪 時代雜誌封面能不能重拍
隨時隨地注意形象 要控制飲食不然就跟杜莎夫人蠟像的我不像（本來就不像）
好萊鎢的中國戲院地上有很多手印腳印何時才能看見我的掌

喔如果超人會飛 那就讓我在空中停一停歇
再次俯瞰這個世界 會讓我覺得好一些
拯救地球好累 雖然有些疲憊但我還是會
不要問我哭過了沒 因為超人不能流眼淚

唱歌要拿最佳男歌手 拍電影也不能只拿個最佳新人
你不參加頒獎典禮就是沒禮貌 你去參加就是代表你很在乎
得獎時你感動落淚（落淚） 人家就會覺得你誇張做作（做作）
你沒表情別人就會說太囂張
如果你天生這個表情 那些人甚至會怪你媽媽（媽媽）

結果最後是別人在得獎 你也要給予充分的掌聲與微笑
開的車不能太好 住的樓不能太高
我到底是一個創作歌手還是好人好事代表
專輯一出就必須是冠軍 拍了電影就必須要大賣
只能說當超人真的好難

如果超人會飛（超人會飛） 那就讓我在空中停一停歇（停一停歇）
再次俯瞰這個世界 會讓我覺得好一些
拯救地球好累（地球好累） 雖然有些疲憊但我還是會（我還是會）
不要問我哭過了沒 因為超人不能流眼淚

自導自演

自導自演
作曲：周杰倫

巷口甩尾甩開了過去的熟悉
照後鏡的你比腦海清晰
你我距離就像打滑和那漂移
差很遠但看似很接近

車燈閃了一下代表我還在意
被我看見你上他的車這麼不小心
喇叭按了兩聲代表我會離去
你放心我理解這遊戲

呼嘯而過的引擎聲 是你最討厭的旋律
穿梭在城市中 變成一首幻想曲
一邊瘋狂記錄一邊璀璨的忘記（忘記忘記忘記忘記）

你發脾氣甩上車門香味留在車裡
對不起要走可以關門別太大力
用點心你說不是用來吃的點心
冰淇淋融化了謊言在你身邊的美麗

#沒有了雨雨刷還是不停左右
就像回憶開始對我揮了揮手
儀鏢板轉動在猜我會不會懂
速度再快也追不回承諾

車窗搖下聽妳聽妳完美藉口
音樂開大讓我讓我假裝感動
貼心的你不用自導自演心痛
我看不懂我會更難過#

巷口甩尾甩開了過去的熟悉
照後鏡的你比腦海清晰
你我距離就像打滑和那漂移
差很遠但看似很接近

車燈閃了一下代表我還在意
被我看見你上他的車這麼不小心（不小心）
喇叭按了兩聲代表我會離去
你放心我理解這遊戲

呼嘯而過的引擎聲 是你最討厭的旋律
穿梭在城市中 變成一首幻想曲
一邊瘋狂記錄一邊璀璨的忘記（忘記忘記忘記忘記）

你發脾氣甩上車門香味留在車裡
對不起要走可以關門別太大力
用點心你說不是用來吃的點心
冰淇淋融化了謊言在你身邊的美麗

Repeat # #

愛的飛行日記

愛的飛行日記
作曲：周杰倫

*（杰倫）
赤道的邊境 萬里無云 天很清
愛你的事情 說的千遍 有迴音
岸邊的丘陵 崎嶇不平 浪入侵
我卻很專心 分辨得出 你的聲音

（Gary）
用南極的冰 將愛結晶 我用心
永不融化的是 愛你的這個決定*

（合）
透明 堅硬

#（Gary）
升空對抗 重力反應
逐漸渺小的風景
景景景景景色分明
我加速引擎 拋開遠方的黎明

（合）
剩速度回應 向銀河逼近
我對著流星 祈禱時專心
為愛飛行 脫離地心引力的熱情
找一顆星 只為了你命名
我用光年傳遞愛情
為愛飛行 脫離地心引力的熱情
我在宇宙無重力的環境
為你降臨#

Repeat *

（合）
透明（透明） 堅硬（堅硬）

Repeat #

我落淚•情緒零碎

我落淚•情緒零碎
作曲：周杰倫

地上 斷了翅的蝶
霧散之后的 滿月
原來愛 跟心碎
都可以很 細節
聽夜風繞過 幾條街
秋天瘦了滿地 的落葉
於是又一整夜
感情的句子 都枯萎 凋謝

我不想再寫 隨手撕下這一頁
原來詩 跟離別 可以沒有結尾（沒有結尾）
憔悴後悔等等 這些 於是我 把詩摺疊
郵寄出感覺 夾一束白玫瑰 你將愛退回

*我不落淚 忍住感覺
分手在起風 這個季節
哭久了會累 也只是別人的以為
冷的咖啡 我清醒著 一再續杯
我落淚 情緒零碎
你的世界 一幕幕紛飛
門外的薔薇 帶刺傷人的很直接
過去被翻閱 結局滿天的 風雪*

我不想再寫 隨手撕下這一頁（這一頁）
原來詩 跟離別 可以沒有結尾（沒有結尾）
憔悴後悔等等 這些 於是我 把詩摺疊
郵寄出感覺 夾一束白玫瑰  你將愛退回

Repeat *

嘻哈空姐

嘻哈空姐
作曲：周杰倫

起落架離開地上 空姐親切的講
請我打開遮陽板 將安全帶繫上
接著問是否用餐 需不需要毛毯
而我沉睡在客艙 夢境在我正上方

她沒有狐狸臉蛋 竟然可以這麼耐看
發香 愛愛愛愛上 醒來在飛機上
座位還在晃 一半 她放慢腳步想我拼命跑想我去追上
我知道 因為 我想

*她問我Coffee tea or me（她問我她問我Coffee tea or me）
我深深倒抽一口氣（我深深我深深倒抽一口氣）
她身體擺動的頻率（她身體她身體擺動的頻率）
讓我幾乎喘不過氣（讓我幾乎讓我幾乎喘不過氣）*

我點咖啡不加糖 正對著她品嚐
那免稅品的包裝 誘人像她一樣
我決定邊走邊唱 她的眼神渴望
充滿暗示與想像 給予人一種挑戰

夢遊的初步階段 我腦海播放了一段（形狀）
幻幻幻幻想 醒來在走道上 隨節奏在晃
閃亮 她一路翹臀推著那餐車性感的模樣
短裙的 弧度 漂亮

Repeat *

她問我Coffee tea or me（她問我她問我Coffee tea or me）
我張大眼睛在懷疑（我深深我深深倒抽一口氣）
厚嘴唇很有吸引力（她身體她身體擺動的頻率）
我會不會瞬間麻痺（讓我幾乎讓我幾乎喘不過氣）

雨下一整晚

雨下一整晚
作曲：周杰倫
填詞：方文山

街燈下的櫥窗 有一種落寞的溫暖
吐氣在玻璃上 畫著妳的模樣
開著車漫無目的地轉彎 不知要去哪個地方
鬧區的電視牆 到底有誰在看

*白楊木 影子被拉長
像我對你的思念走不完
原來我從未習慣
你已不在我 身旁
街道的 鐵門被拉上
只剩轉角霓虹燈還在閃
這城市 的小巷 雨下一整晚*

妳撐把小紙傘 嘆姻緣太婉轉
雨落下霧茫茫 問天涯在何方
午夜笛笛聲殘 偷偷透透過窗
燭台前我嘛還在想
小舢舨 划啊划
小紙傘 遮雨也遮月光

Repeat *

好久不見

好久不見
作曲：周杰倫

好久不見 你還好嗎
你的小狗 長大了嗎
我的圍巾 還圍著嗎
我的相片 都丟了吧
我剪不到後面頭髮
這個藉口還不錯吧（哎喲不錯）
一把剪刀一堆廢話
還不是想求求你回來吧

*麥擱一個人咧生氣
乎伊煩惱 乎伊操心
雖然不關我ㄟ代誌
誰叫他是我ㄟ兄弟 耶
攏這麼久就唰唰去
想想秋天就馬過去 耶
冬天來臨他會怕冷
你不回來甘講要我抱伊
按呢甘好*

是我不好
我沒有緊緊抱住你
你說淚流著很危險
如果等雨一起（等雨一起）
流下不讓同情發現

#我對天空這個那個流星
大喊後會不會有奇蹟
就算做朋友也沒關係
為你改變了自己都不認識自己
不是我跑去了整形
只是我拿出真心
開一瓶這個那個香檳
去我的Mr.J餐廳
點蠟燭順便吃個甜品
慶祝你打死不連絡的毅力
冷戰早已經不流行
趕快回來到 我身邊#

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是我不好
我沒有緊緊抱住你（緊緊抱住你）
你說淚流著很危險（很危險）
如果等雨一起（等雨一起）
流下不讓同情發現

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免費教學錄影帶

免費教學錄影帶
主唱：周杰倫
作曲：周杰倫

杰倫：老闆
巨砲：年輕人又來看吉他啦
杰倫：哦我要那一把
巨砲：那一把 哈哈 那是琵琶 不是吉他
杰倫：我是說旁邊那一把
巨砲：旁邊那一把很貴的
杰倫：你可不可以自然一點

如果你 想要變成一個Rocker
你就必須要先有一把Guitar
刷和絃的時候盡量不用Pick
啊看起來樣子會比較隨性
就算你彈錯了大家會以為 你是故意（噠噠啦噠）

你是不是 啊哈 感覺到了
我的和絃 啊哈 在重複著
哎呦不錯代表你耳朵沒有聾
Blues就是在重複這幾個和絃
搖滾的節奏在右手 靈魂在左手 心就是宇宙
我彈的叫自由（噠噠啦噠）

*聽我的Blues(Blues) 要學會尖叫(尖叫)
比一個Peace(Peace) 是為了拍照（拍照）
丟一塊Ice(Ice) 叫他不要吵（不要吵）
搖滾不是為了把妹是為了夢想
當然魅力太強被別人愛上我沒辦法*

啊 斷了
沒關係再買一把吉他（吉他）
沒有錢就借別人的吧（的吧）
怎麼會有人喜歡摔吉他（吉他）
有種你就摔最貴的吉他（吉他）
你要好好珍惜它 它才會對你說話

手在彈如果腳有點閒
再加點舞蹈就太完美了
舉起你的單手給她個啵！
千萬別在這時放個屁啵！
OhOh美女在哪你就要看到哪
你一定以為我接下來要唱副歌
OhOh還沒 不急我先教你彈
再升一格 再升一格 最後退一格 啊

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再來一次
如果你加幾個音就變鄉村風味
大家聽久了都（咩）會很想喝牛奶
牛仔很忙沒有空幫你擠牛奶（這是羊不是牛齁）（是喔）
不過不要笨到自己跑去擠牛奶（沒有啦）
因為臨時要在路邊找到一頭牛真的很難
（啦啦啦啦啦啦啦啦）副歌

聽我的Blues(Blues) 要學會尖叫(尖叫)
比一個Peace(Peace) 是為了拍照（拍照）
丟一塊Ice(Ice) 叫他不要吵（不要吵）
搖滾不是為了把妹是為了夢想
當然魅力太強被別人愛上
當然魅力太強被別人愛上我沒辦法
再來一次 最後一次 再補一次

煙花易冷

煙花易冷
作曲：周杰倫
填詞：方文山

繁華聲 遁入空門 折煞了世人
夢偏冷 輾轉一生 情債又幾本
如你默認 生死枯等
枯等一圈 又一圈的 年輪

浮屠塔 斷了幾層 斷了誰的魂
痛直奔 一盞殘燈 傾塌的山門
容我再等 歷史轉身
等酒香醇 等你彈 一曲古箏

*雨紛紛 舊故里草木深
我聽聞 你始終一個人
斑駁的城門 盤踞著老樹根
石板上回蕩的是 再等

雨紛紛 舊故里草木深
我聽聞 你仍守著孤城
城郊牧笛聲 落在那座野村
緣份落地生根是 我們*

聽青春 迎來笑聲 羨煞許多人
那史冊 溫柔不肯 下筆都太狠
煙花易冷 人事易分
而你在問 我是否還 認真

千年後 累世情深 還有誰在等
而青史 豈能不真 魏書洛陽城
如你在跟 前世過門
跟著紅塵 跟隨我 浪跡一生

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雨紛紛 舊故里草木深
我聽聞 你始終一個人
斑駁的城門 盤踞著老樹根
石板上回蕩的是 再等

雨紛紛 雨紛紛 舊故里草木深
我聽聞 我聽聞 你仍守著孤城
城郊牧笛聲 落在那座野村
緣份落地生根是 我們
緣份落地生根是 我們
伽藍寺聽雨聲盼 永恆

說了再見

說了再見
作曲：周杰倫
填詞：方文山

 

*天涼了 雨下了 你走了
清楚了 我愛的 遺失了
落葉飄在湖面上睡著了
想要放 放不掉 淚在飄
你看看 你看看不到
我假裝過去不重要 卻發現自己辦不到

 

說了再見 才發現再也見不到
我不能 就這樣 失去你 的微笑
口紅待在桌角 而你我找不到
若角色對調 你說好不好*

 

#說了再見 才發現再也見不到
能不能就這樣 忍著痛 淚不掉
說好陪我到老 永恒往那裡找
再次擁抱 一分一秒 都好#

 

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你的笑 你的好 腦海裡 一直在繞
我的手 忘不了 你手的溫度
心 碎了一地 撿不回從前的心跳 身陷過去我無力逃跑

 

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跨時代

跨時代
作曲：周杰倫
填詞：黃俊郎

*鐘 逆時針而繞 惡物猙獰的傾巢
我謙卑安靜的於城堡下的晚禱
壓抑遠古流竄的蠻荒暗號
而管風琴鍵高傲的說那只是在徒勞

 

我的樂器在環繞
時代無法淘汰我霸氣（的皇朝）
你無法預言 因為我越險 翅越艷
沒有句點 跨時代蔓延 翼朝天

 

月下浮雕 魔鬼的淺笑
狼迎風嚎 蝠翔似黑潮
用孤獨去調尊嚴的色調

 

我跨越過世代 如獸般的姿態
琴聲喚起沉睡的血脈
不需要被崇拜 如獸般的悲哀
只為永恆的樂曲存在 醒過來*

 

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我不需要被崇拜 我不需要被崇拜
我跨越過時代 如獸般的姿態
琴聲喚起沉睡的血脈
不需要被崇拜 如獸般的悲哀
只為永恆的樂曲存在 醒過來

状况

应付这个。。。
应付那个。。。
害怕？压力？

压力。。。还好，就如往常。
害怕。。。怕也怕我做的太错

给予一些信任好吗？
我还是我。我就是我。我就是爱你的我。

晚安。

记事

深夜，独自一人。。。

在逛。。。

在游。。。

在沉思着。。。

我想的。。。她想的。。。

我做的一切。。。有笨的也有好的，大概吧。

但是我可以说，我不后悔，我没爱错她。

更是经历了这么长的时间，我更肯定唯一的她。

然而，那天不知不觉地在谈电话中，她的一些想法与词句，让我哭了。那感觉很奇妙，不完全伤心或开心，但不知道她有没有发觉，不过却让我更肯定她就是了。

我想说，我有做我该做的事，然后想找你听你。。。但不好意思我是这么的闷。你可以说我开心你接了电话，听到你我就不知道要说什么了。

去凯斌哪里，查询一些东西。。。佩琪打来了，当然我说的是打去给凯斌。一阵感触，我期待的一封回复没来，没关系。。。电话荧幕壁纸放的是她开心的样子。

回去时，在车里想了一想。。。突然，两位马来西亚皇家警察来了，向我查询了身份，由于无聊就闲聊起来 = =，都在聊车子。

最后。。。晚安，想你。。。

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原谅我的沉闷与不创意

谢谢你对我的耐心与忍让

某处看到的

爱的最高境界？


是习惯，当你习惯了另一个人生活中的习惯，你就真的爱上他了。
好比说：

一个女人习惯了一个男人的鼻鼾声，从不适应到没有听见他的鼻鼾声就睡不着。

一个男人习惯了一个女人的任性，撒娇，甚至无理取闹。
一个人会去迁就一个人的习惯，甚至为对方改变。

如果还未能适应所有，你依然爱他/她，只是还没有到那所谓的最高境界罢了，那需要时间。

当然，这当中不包括伤害他/她本身的习惯。

当你真正习惯上了所有他/她的习惯，就像他身上的味道还有其他的一切，那恭喜你。

你不必再问：“爱是什么？”

因为：“爱他/她，爱有他/她的日子，习惯称得上爱的最高境界。”

???

怎么了?

突然今天找不着你。。。

是我弄你生气了吗？

还是有别的事?


过去就算了，你会再做得更好的，没什么难得到你。

不错的说法

根据这篇，值得一读，哈哈。。。黄佩琪男友陈凯斌写（打）的。

也许很多时候是对的，但没有回头路一说，因为我懂得路，就有回头路？

当然，在真实驾驶中，那固然是好。。。

但在两个人的事里面，还是像他说的好，珍惜。。。不应该想有没有回头路，走下去吧。。。两人一起已不容易，相爱更不简单。

走回头路，不一定好，很多时候只有伤害。


“Baby 你就是我的唯一，两个世界都变形，回去谈何容易”

因为知道你的好，因为肯听你是唯一~~♥嫔♥。。。

我知道，我不知道

我知道，我想很多。

我知道，我希望好的结果。

我知道，我期待好的礼物。

我也知道，最近容易失眠。

我更知道，我非常期待你的微笑，那开心的与接受的笑容。

但我不知道，为什么你会不让我接你。

我也不知道，我是否每次把你弄生气。

但我会知道，尽量去理解当中的原因。


希望。。。你不会真的不理我。。。

想说（三）

想说。。。心情跌入谷底

想说。。。找你，真的不是刻意要烦你，希望你能聆听关心，让我的心情好转。

想说。。。找你，也想听听你的事儿。

想说。。。虽然我不知道你为什么突然改变了想法或计划，但我承认我想接你，想提早见你，所以我在意你的理由。

想说。。。希望你能原谅我的执著，因为我在乎你，没有特别为什么，就爱你。

想说。。。你是我的幸福，所以我的希望就如我和你说的一样，希望我也会是你的幸福。

就此。。。心中除了希望还是希望，还有你。。。

时候不早，也许可说是太早，凌晨五点三十二分，就此搁笔（搁键）。

想说（二）

想说。。。我想你

想说。。。我爱你

想说。。。希望你有一天再来到这里，能够细读我写关于你的每一篇。。。

想说。。。我真的希望你会再次来到这里

想说。。。写到这里，我也不知道为什么莫名其妙地流泪。。。

但还想说。。。知不知道，在你真正睡前，所发的晚安简讯，会是最甜最好的安眠药；不是因为无聊沉闷，而是最贴心的。

也顺便说。。。到现时现刻，我把你每一封简讯收起来，已有1121封。

这个。。。那个

这个特别的“降级”学期，原本应该不会怎样，但班上的人，唉。。。

魔鬼赛程开始了，我得冲过去。。。

为了这个，为了那个。。。

但艰难的第一步，踏得出脚印，踩得出足迹吗？

能够的话，算是有很多事情可以松下一口气。。。

无论是自己的，还是她的。。。

还真希望在这魔鬼赛程后，会有好的结果，好的开始。。。

想说

想说，不是刻意要打扰你，就想要听听你的声音，了解一下今天的你过得好不好。

想说，不是刻意要让你觉得沉闷，很多时候两个人静静的并不是问题，只要有问有答，有说有笑，有你的存在与陪伴，听你说说你的故事，了解你的状况就很开心了。就多一点告诉我你的事情好吗？=）

想说，虽然和你远了一点，但简简单单的你让我体会了另一种的幸福与渴望，你每一次的归来都让我充满说不出的喜悦。

想说，虽然不知我在你心中是如何，更不知道你对我的评价与信心，但爱你~~想要和你恋爱，想你当女友，却已是五年不变日有所思，夜有所梦的事。

想说，我们都希望彼此会是最终的哪一个，我了解你的顾虑，但多半数的顾虑都会慢慢领悟。

想说，有你~~已经最美好，会是最美好。

爱你~

Journey To The West

任升关死劫轻轻送，千般色相偏看重
镜不染尘凡心动，今天果靠当天种
手中经要心里颂，对天对地圆我梦

用芭蕉扇泼不清
念紧箍咒心澄明
合指一算扬起袈裟取我西经

凡间仙界比坚贞，烈火深雪考虔诚
合掌一笑无需爱恨只爱西经
戒恨戒憎不戒深情心也未能静
但戒欲戒疑可会超凡和入圣

 

任升关死劫轻轻送，千般色相偏看重
镜不染尘凡心动，今天果靠当天种
手中经要心里颂，对天对地圆我梦

一切有为法，如梦幻泡影
如露亦如电，应作如是观

一切有为法，如梦幻泡影
如露亦如电，应作如是观

用芭蕉扇泼不清
念紧箍咒心澄明
合指一算扬起袈裟取我西经

凡间仙界比坚贞，烈火深雪考虔诚
合掌一笑无需爱恨只爱西经
戒恨戒憎不戒深情心也未能静
但戒欲戒疑可会超凡和入圣

任升关死劫轻轻送，千般色相偏看重
镜不染尘凡心动，今天果靠当天种
手中经要心里颂，对天对地圆我梦

色不异空空不异色
色既是空空既是色

色不异空空不异色
色既是空空既是色

希望原，失望崖，绝望谷

一坪宽阔的草原

唯见一悬崖峭壁

失足崖于绝望谷

Alike

Alike… Alike… Alive
People alike… Thinks alike…
People alike… Thinks alive…
People alive… Thinks alike? NO…
There wouldn’t be so much cases, whatever that human beings brought up if the last statement is true…
Reflect… Refract… Reflect…
“If you wanna make the world a better place, take a look at yourself and then make a change.” [Michael Jackson “Man In The Mirror”]

To you and only you

It’s been almost 5 years…

Yet you still the best for me…

Yes… You are somehow correct, weird problems…

But maybe that’s what makes up the funny moments… And the reason we always crap or quarrel over silly or same matters ha.

I know… I am nowhere or hardly anywhere to your expectation…

Still… Happy enough to can help you anytime… Even just crap to accompany you…

I am not a good stress manager… But I always ask you not to over the limit, I trust your abilities and so do you must… Everything will be fine on you, Ping.

 

P/S: Really enjoy the moment with you… Even silly sms haha…

Worthy… Worthless

Excellent… Flawless…

My friends are actually all worthy… No matter how… They get what they wanted, and live happily ever after… Sounds like story…

Me… Worthless… Maybe I should modify, worthless scum? All just shit… Whatever…

Now…

Being kind, and always applying mirror reflection theory… It should do good, but it just ends up so stupid…

Like Tzmin said, people should be selfish… MYOB… AKA BN theory. Ever wonder how that worked out, and luckily the world isn’t spinning according to that theory.

And…

Talking something deep and knowledgeable… People end up commenting you insane, or just don’t give a damn… But I do agree, people always like crap and those basics, I do sometimes.

Procrastination… Ahh right… Feel good… I always do when fetching KP… But KP always do and overdo upon more important yet inevitable stuff like assignment, what can you say? But he is lucky… He always just get distinction anyway… Just close eyes about this…

Minds can be full of thought… Or maybe I am much more… Brain cells stores whatever it can, but why can’t just remember some simple useful things? Just use 10% of the effort in remembering craps will do.

 

ABOVE ALL ELSE

Just ignore after reading… As I think I am the most failure here…

I do have my loved one, Siang Ping… Although not together and for so long but it’s ok… You are the one… Simple yet just good that I could carry on… Love ya…

I don’t just have the words or sentence now to say out everything… I may be stupid on what people deemed important… So do you have insight and understanding on the real important shit?

Flashback @ November’s Chopin

It reminds me of that time when you flash your camera at me… Being so close yet so far…

Without going deep into my mind to think exactly which year is that, where me and you attended the Jay Chou autograph session for The November’s Chopin album… Our first one, yet unforgettable one.

Around 6pm we reach there at One Utama New Wing, there were already crowd leaving us no choice but to queue far behind, also where we knew about MyJaysian which we subsequently joined after the event.

So hmmm… What we had there for dinner, no… Nothing… There were already long queue. I am with a bag, along with camera, and our albums inside. The environment there is high while hot, with MY FM DJ to bring the heat up further until Jay Chou’s arrival, at approximately 8pm.

We took some photos along the way… But sadly I lost all last time during formatting… We were hungry, with me having just a bottle of water to sustain both of us.

You slept on my shoulder briefly, and I take you on my back where you hold me tight for some distance, before we realizing its almost 10:30pm, 2 and half hour waiting we have gone through… We are almost there…

And around 10:50pm, we were on the stage, with Jay Chou in smile, signing our album… It’s good to see that, and your smile after the exhausting moment.

And we meet up with your sister, and her boyfriend and we headed to Kiven’s Corner… Although the Maggi Goreng there not so nice, but it will do for all the hunger just now…

I will remember that moment… With the song in mind most with you… 夜曲

Potato’s question

So Potato actually asks me… Why do I need a performance vehicle like Civic Type R?

To avoid wasting further time… Simply one don’t just understand the car…

And above all else… Simple… It is the word always, PASSION.

But this PASSION is expensive no doubt…

 

Just like his PASSION, basketball.

So FD2 is good… At least in much people eyes including myself… But wait till you get into the Type R…

Sigmund Freud Structural model of Psyche

Id… The unconscious… The Pleasure Principle

Ego… The pre-conscious… The Reality Principle

Super Ego… The conscious… The Perfection Principle

 

This somehow reminds me of psychology course…

Today dig it out and recall some of the points…

This should prove useful in some analysis…

 

THE ID

The id is the only component of personality that is present from birth. This aspect of personality is entirely unconscious and includes of the instinctive and primitive behaviors. According to Freud, the id is the source of all psychic energy, making it the primary component of personality.
The id is driven by the pleasure principle, which strives for immediate gratification of all desires, wants, and needs. If these needs are not satisfied immediately, the result is a state anxiety or tension. For example, an increase in hunger or thirst should produce an immediate attempt to eat or drink. The id is very important early in life, because it ensures that an infants needs are met. If the infant is hungry or uncomfortable, he or she will cry until the demands of the id are met. However, immediately satisfying these needs is not always realistic or even possible. If we were ruled entirely by the pleasure principle, we might find ourselves grabbing things we want out of other people's hands to satisfy our own cravings. This sort of behavior would be both disruptive and socially unacceptable. According to Freud, the id tries to resolve the tension created by the pleasure principle through the primary process, which involves forming a mental image of the desired object as a way of satisfying the need. Simply say, the basic needs such as food, shelter, and also can be linked to sexual drive, aka the Libido.

 

THE EGO

The ego is the component of personality that is responsible for dealing with reality. According to Freud, the ego develops from the id and ensures that the impulses of the id can be expressed in a manner acceptable in the real world. The ego functions in both the conscious, preconscious, and unconscious mind.
The ego operates based on the reality principle, which strives to satisfy the id's desires in realistic and socially appropriate ways. The reality principle weighs the costs and benefits of an action before deciding to act upon or abandon impulses. In many cases, the id's impulses can be satisfied through a process of delayed gratification--the ego will eventually allow the behavior, but only in the appropriate time and place.
The ego also discharges tension created by unmet impulses through the secondary process, in which the ego tries to find an object in the real world that matches the mental image created by the id's primary process.

 

THE SUPER EGO

The last component of personality to develop is the superego. The superego is the aspect of personality that holds all of our internalized moral standards and ideals that we acquire from both parents and society--our sense of right and wrong. The superego provides guidelines for making judgments. According to Freud, the superego begins to emerge at around age five.
There are two parts of the superego:

1. The ego ideal includes the rules and standards for good behaviors. These behaviors include those which are approved of by parental and other authority figures. Obeying these rules leads to feelings of pride, value, and accomplishment.
2. The conscience includes information about things that are viewed as bad by parents and society. These behaviors are often forbidden and lead to bad consequences, punishments, or feelings of guilt and remorse.

The superego acts to perfect and civilize our behavior. It works to suppress all unacceptable urges of the id and struggles to make the ego act upon idealistic standards rather that upon realistic principles. The superego is present in the conscious, preconscious, and unconscious.