Merry Christmas

A very warm and sincere Merry Christmas to all readers/visitors of this blog, from me the author of this blog and the pity blog itself.

Without you all regular visits, this blog would be lonely. Your visits much appreciated all the while.

Thank you, and a happy holiday.

Suteki Da Ne (Isn't it beautiful)

Greetings all visitors, I hereby present to you, Suteki Da Ne.

寂寞

哟。。平安夜，大家都有大家各自的节目。
我，和往常一样，谁都比不上。
我，还是一个人，在家里上网。
没关系，总是要习惯的，寂寞或伤悲也许有一天会麻木。

平安夜

今天是平安夜，祝大家平安夜快乐，也预祝大家圣诞节快乐。
祝大家欢喜连连，渡过一个温馨浪漫的圣诞节。珍惜你们拥有的。。。

I got a nice present for her, maybe

I got a present for her, uniquely for her... But maybe, will she like it?

One week to tournament

Exactly one week left before the Command & Conquer 3 Tiberium Wards tournament in Ipoh, well not really one week since we need to get through qualifier. And I haven't really train up since then, not really confident about it, but I expect a nice show from my fellow comrades.

To all comrades, which is Comrade î, Comrade Ding, Comrade Potato Teo... All the best, and may you all get into top 8.

Christmas is near

Christmas is near... Everyone is filled with joy and good expectation towards it... Well, I hope I could have one though... But too bad as always, sometimes many things fated.

If actually she could hear me.... I want to say "Ping, let's celebrate Christmas together this time and forever." and want to tell her "Ping, I love you. Give us a chance?"

1000 Words Lyrics

I know that you're hiding things

Using gentle words to shelter me
Your words were like a dream
But dreams could never fool me
Not that easily

I acted so distant then
Didn't say goodbye before you left
But I was listening
You'll fight your battles far from me
Far too easily

Save your tears 'cause I'll come back
I could hear that you whispered as you walked through that door
But still I swore to hide the pain when I turn back the pages
Shouting might have been the answer
What if I'd cried my eyes out and begged you not to depart?
But now I'm not afraid to say what's in my heart

Though a thousand words
Have never been spoken
They'll fly to you
Crossing over the time and distance holding you
Suspended on silver wings

And a thousand words
One thousand confessions
Will cradle you
Making all of the pain you feel seem far away
They'll hold you forever

The dream isn't over yet
Though I often say I can forget
I still relive that day
You've been there with me all the way
I still hear you say

Wait for me, I’ll write you letters
I could see how you stammered with your eyes to the floor
But still I swore to hide the doubt when I turn back the pages
Anger might have been the answer
What if I'd hung my head and said that I couldn't wait?
But now I'm strong enough to know it's not too late

Cause a thousand words
Call out through the ages
They'll fly to you
Even though I can't see, I know they're reaching you
Suspended on silver wings

Oh, a thousand words
One thousand embraces
Will cradle you
Making all of your weary days seem far away
They'll hold you forever

Oh, a thousand words
Have never been spoken
They'll fly to you
They'll carry you home and back into my arms
Suspended on silver wings (Oh~Silver Wings)

And a thousand words
Call out through the ages
They'll cradle you
Turning all of the lonely years to only days
They'll hold you forever
Oh~~~
A Thousand Words

1000 Words

To all visitors, I hereby share with you... 1000 Words... From Final Fantasy X2

蒲公英的约定

事实，很多时候。。是残酷的。。
献给大家。。周杰伦的“蒲公英的约定”

当你根本不想。。。

当你根本不想去理会某个人，或根本不喜欢或根本就恨他时，他的一举一动，在你眼中都是不好的，都是坏的。只要小小的一个疏忽或错误，可就会被记一大过，大大地加深了你对他的恨。

没关系。。。早就该要习惯的了。。。

这世界。。。也许根本没有“好心有好报”，或者公平不公平这种事。

Year 2008

Almost the end of year 2008, not to conclude anything, but let me just list something important on this year.
First year of degree semester 1, not really good not really bad, but it is bad to have some holiday mood classmates.

My birthday, thanks my friends for going out a while with me to cover up my disappointment. Quite sad because she "forgotten" about my birthday maybe... Or can say didn't appear on that day. But, she is not obligated to remember anyway, I ain't the special one.

CELGames 2008, I become the first Malaysian ever to win Singapore champion Ravana.
WCG 2008, I got 5th place in my first debut in the World Cyber Games.

Failure, I failed much... I am still not up to standard overall or good enough overall to make Ping have feelings towards me, although I've been trying to be good for 3 years.. and 3 years half until now when I am typing this. Nevertheless, can't really do anything, if she actually feels she likes it that way, if there is miracle, I hope the miracle to happen on this really.

Ping's birthday, I got something that maybe she would like to have for her present, hope she really likes it anyway.

STPM, Ping's exam finally over... Marking an end of 7 years for her in SMKTD... With much of her memories in there...

And, did I miss out something? Yes, definitely much that I missed... But then just in the moment, I somehow want to cry... But yet I can't as usual... Who can I really share with?

Just do what you need

Exam over, and still assignment left... for many friends of mine...
Well, a word or two... Just do what you need...

Over

The exam is over... That's it... Not really good or bad, just wait to see the final results.

And... I hope I am not really over with that another case, although quite difficult... But just doing my best to keep things going on and fine... Those who understands me, thank you for your understanding and support all the way. Of course, who doesn't want a good ending...

To Zanarkand

I feel sorry that I am not good in expressing sometimes, and I don't know how to make a simple video, not even 1% to Jay Chou or any others...

Another desired moment

Just some update... I have many things crossing in minds... I really hope one day things will be what I hope to be along with her. I really love her much... The feel is so true every time... Well, I really do...

My hand... Weird

A bit low on light... But still nice with Ping ^^

With Flash... Bright until...

Not bad...~I love Ping^^

My dream

I hoped for much in the future, after having what I had now... My dad and mom worked that hard to have this day... Me, I may can't achieve that much, but I know I must at least get enough, more than enough, more than average to avoid much worries...

And.. I am sure everyone wanted to do so

I am not happy

I've been acting strangely according to my friends...
Yes, I am not happy really... No matter from what angle, things going not good...
But what to do... I am just too hard to find someone to tell with... I am just not same type of person as all of them MAJORITY...

Introductory Business Concepts

Short for IBC, I realize that we need to study all those god damn endless useless stuff that has nothing to do with the word "Business"... Including criminal law, health and safety that should be the resposibility for those VIP in our country, abbreviation for Very Important Person, or in Malaysia for true to be "Very Important Pigssssss"... Yes, with many ssssss...

Week 14

Number always makes something very normal into something very unique, such as area to be added 51 into Area 51, and it represents an alien site in the U.S of the by god A. Here we got week, plus 14, into Week 14 aka E-week, to be misinterpreted as Entertainment Week and to be true Exam Week...

That's right, exam Semester 1 is imminent. Here, I wish my kiasi and kiasu friends out there, all the best.

Testing out N95... And just to feel something I can't have

Quite hazy condition... But still stand out compare to the rest of the others, especially those who so fancy with JJ and Sony Ericsson...

I know.. I am just nothing.. I forever won't get what I like what I want... But I respect those who worth it...

I am back... After...

I haven't update anything since December 6, which is quite a long period. However, just to tell that there are just too much things that I came across...

And... I just need some really true friend to tell with if possible... and NO, not my family which you all may suggest. Because I am the most useless and most stupid in my family, they won't really give a damn on what I say or what I want.

I think...

I think... I got some problem for dreaming something weird, weird until I don't even know if I know those people in my dream, possibly I don't know at all...
And to put that away first, because next week there is a list of things that I need to do, such as prepare present for SP, DTA Assignment, Presentation, and study for IBC and DTA exam... and worst thing is, seems not really related although there is a link. And my personal case, emotionally disturbing... I can't really get that over with... I am not confident to say we can be good, but instead I say I can always keep up with what I can to let you feel better towards it, and you can be confident with yourself about us.

Christmas Present, maybe I still don't have one this year

I am just a bit too nervous maybe... But I am serious and sincere with you, I didn't play around the feelings with you for 3 years... I know I may be too far away to be what you want, but what I know is I love you, to be true. Can we tell out what's between us? We can be happy as others right?

So sorry if I actually hurted you or ruined your emotion, I apologize. But really hope we could have a chance, and a better Christmas this year and forever.

Piano and Drum

Ahhh... Music instrument, Piano and Drum have always been my favorite.
First, let's see, Piano can actually play a nice piece of music on its own, but drum plays great role in the beat.
Here comes the story, Drum in loves with Piano. Everytime in the concert, Drum supports Piano performance, Drum feels very happy with that, and this condition has been continued for 3 series of World Tour Concert. Finally, at the most recent series of World Tour, final station in Malaysia, Piano rejected Drum's confession. Drum although sad, but understand Drum is just a Drum, too simple... But Piano need someone that learned musical notes, and can play Piano as if it is the player is speaking him/herself.
But no matter how, Drum hides up his emotion, and continue to play the beats for Piano, until the Drum spoiled one day and to be replaced...

And yes, I didn't master piano as expected... I can't play To Zanarkand on my own, can't play Secret, can't play any Chopin's or Beethoven or Mozart or Bach or anyone you prefer... There, I admit, there is no limitation, but there is definitely something where you need to do with extra effort with little or no results when the others can.

Anyone can tell?

I am asking here, anyone can tell... If L15A engine block is same with R18? Reliable answer would be greatly appreciated.

Be Confident to have Confidence

Finally... A more sophiticated title...
Nothing much to mean, just... When confidence is needed, you need to have it, but don't overconfident with that in time...
Ok, so understand? I think it is better to understand... Because it is too important...

Type R anyone?

Ok, the title suggests it all... But first, let start with some latest news.
With now currently December, the 2009 Honda City going to be launched soon. With all new features and looking, powered up with SOHC i-VTEC 1.5L (L15A) engine, that is indeed a good choice for all with adequate budget, no longer need to suffer from those eyesore "Dugong" aka Toyota Vios.
However, China get something that is far more interesting than the rest of the world. Their 2009 Honda City that is going to be launched 12 December 2008 soon, will not only feature those mentioned and throughout the world, instead they come with 2 variants. The other special variant that only available in China will be SOHC i-VTEC 1.8L, that is being used in Honda Civic 1.8S. With 140HP on a much more lighter Honda City, it will be sure that it is a lot of fun and feelings. If it is available in Malaysia, well... you could imagine.
Sigh... Still.. Who don't like a Type R when they can? I certainly want it so dead...

A far far dream

With the current situation happening around the globe, it is getting difficult and difficult for us to pursue a great wealth and health like before, don't even imagine how will the next generation do, for it will going to be lesser and going to be none in the near future. However, dream still remains, depends on how many could we complete... As a small part of my dream, I would like to visit to many places if I could, namely follows:

Lavender Farm in Netherlands

Eiffel Tower, France

The Edge of Glacier

Disney Castle

Breithorn Peak, Switzerland

Autumn Season in Germany

Pink Blossoms in Japan

Comet Scene, somehow reminds me of Zanarkand

Neuschwanstein, Germany

Saltzburg, Austria