To loved one

Sincerely, stop questioning me a while, while you are reading this, no matter how much you doubt me always. Seeds of doubts bring shed of tears.
当你读着这篇时，诚恳地希望你能停止质疑我一会儿，不管你平时如何不信任我。

There is always such time, where you are perfect in my sense of everything.
总有那时候，你在我心里是那么的完美。

And there is always such time like tonight, everything went opposite.
也有那么时候，就像今晚，全部都颠倒了。

But there will never be such time, I give up you because of that reason.
但不会有那时候，我会因为今晚的事而不再爱你。

Seldom there is such time, where things burns up my anger, people just don’t know the pain and hurt, when the dagger isn’t stabbing them.
更少见的是，会有这些事燃起我收起已久的脾气。古月有云，那些不知所谓的人，他们不知道那伤痛，因为箭不刺在他们身上。

And I hope you will always have such time, to understand the reason why I tell you so, and appreciate it somehow.
但愿你会有这么那一段时间，明白与了解我的为你。

And why I serious… Because this is what I lack? And because I am serious onto you?
至于为什么突然这么认真，或许是一直以来的事，只是说了出来，因为真的在乎。

This is my life? And I want to see you in every of it?
这是我，就是我……因为你是重要的一部分。

Maybe I got you into some pressure, I tried to keep it down for days, but your distance is getting far like as if it is on rocket engine.
我知道，有很多时候你觉得压力了。但感觉上你的距离越来越远了，而且是神速般，所以我必需告诉你我想的。

I really just want things to be better and appear normal, and although I am not earning anything extra, I still can afford what it appears normal to be.
我仍然记得，我答应你的事，可是有时候那正是你不想面对的？事情总要变好，就会正常。

I have failed much before, but I don’t want any regret with you.
我失败了很多次，但对你我真的不想了。

I somehow feel happy and grateful with their supports (you know who).
当她们说出支持的言论时，我顿时感觉开心与感激。

I am glad that we share much common friends, though your sense of priority a bit… well.
庆幸的是，你我的朋友圈大致上相同，有了特别的一点。

Much to say, but wish and prefer you would talk to me in real… For now, I care, I love you.
千言万语说不尽，但望你会愿意与我谈心。总之……我在乎、我爱你, 小琪

 

P/S: 读了不要生气好吗？