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Something about everything

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Time…

It’s slow when suffering… Fast when enjoying…

Funds…

Seems enough but never quite near adequate…

Stress…

Anytime, anywhere, anything…

Dreams…

Never should be restricted, it costs you nothing but some unconscious time.

Propaganda…

It shows how people can be affected, ironically most of the time when the information is false.

Ideology…

A good way to start war… With all assumptions to make one self happy.

 

I think I crap a bit…

It is still long, long way… To my life, to my desired life, lifestyle…

To be cared and loved… Exactly as in heart and mind…

I dare not ask much, nor to comment for changes always…

Because I know, it might hurt the others… But I can’t stand sometimes…

Questioning the norm… It costs, but it depends how it will pay off in the end…

Sometimes I feel it worked out nicely, but sometimes I feel the resistance, as if there is resilient armor.

Yes, the odds may not be on my side, but I don’t quite get how to explain what’s in me.

Maybe if the one willing to hear…

 

“He who commands the past, controls the future; He who commands the future, conquers the past.” – Kane

Keep forwarding, forgot the past please… I will see your defeat… Will see when the Guardian Angel expires…

 

Maybe under these kind of conditions, soon my fantasy will be all gone…

12:31 AM

Why?

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Things not in control.

Things out of expectation.

Is it just me or?

Curses… Curses…

Everything just oppose…

Including that of very loved.

It is not broken into pieces, yet…

Yet, feeling the pain and fragile.

Remember?

Remember?

Remember?

4:56 PM

When one goes rogue and evil

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The truth is, there is this nature in everyone…

Just how possible it is to be revealed…

I suddenly feel the joy and pleasure, to see those intended to suffer…

It is just so nice… To win as always… But to win utmost with dirty tricks, that crushes them beneath the stone, beyond resurrection.

I know, one can calm me… But the one as always is the one that started, always not going to calm me…

Bleed… Bleed in the heart… No, but bleed from the throat for real, I wonder how did that damage my throat?

She says I am over manipulating… Yes, so true… But so do the reasoning behind…

Mind, is really one strong powerful weapon yet a strong fortification…

1:50 AM

The Dream The Fantasy The Reality

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Dreams can be beautiful.

Fantasies can be wild.

Yet reality can totally oppose you.

 

Fact and reality… Looks same but not so same…

Maybe put in such a way, the fact is you didn’t do something, but the other person assume that the reality is that you did, for the reasons they like.

 

So… Sorry, back to business… Maybe here I wasn’t really updating anything, or maybe it is… Whichever way you all reading out there felt, then it will be…

Maybe I really ought to pursue wild fantasies… But not really much anymore after this, I should have learned not to sway away from my base principals. Dreams… Fantasies… Maybe forever just on my own… I shouldn’t try much on real life…

Sigh… Yes, I am sad? I am down? Hmmmm, maybe not all but somehow… Maybe I shouldn’t but somehow I feel I will and currently is and like a CVT constantly changing… In deep questioning myself, and the surroundings of me and her.

Maybe for one time, I really made a crazy movement to UCTI as quoted by my friend Tzmin…

And it is not that I don’t know how to care… But maybe, I should just sit down and have a talk, straight enough… Or maybe just whack myself to deep thoughts again…

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4:33 AM

Oldies & Classical

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It is during MCV class, abbreviation for Managing Customer Value…

The lecturer says, of our generation… We are still more sane compared to current latest generation…

Yes, we live in this modern time too… But asked us, what music what movie do we like?

Aerosmith, Michael Jackson, Eagles, Aaron Kwok, Jacky Cheung and so on…

Movie wise… Armageddon, The Godfather and etcetera…

The lecturer was glad nobody said Lady GaGa and Justin Bieber (urgghhh)…

 

And now around me…

It seems true except some few people who don’t…

What surprising is Khai Phin… But then well I guess he still knew much of those motivational one…

Not that I am really that older than them, just maybe opportunity… Other than opportunity, “not seeing is believing” attitude for them…

Well… Everyone is limited either…

12:47 AM

Fuck My Life

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So…

It feels so good to be in power and in control of everything…

Whether authority bodies, parents, and any position…

Now I guess I know why one desires for power…

Why there is war…

Why there is 爸,我回来了 song…

No, it is extremely deadly and un-filial for me to swear sweet pay back…

But somehow anyhow… I will do it in other nice way…

12:43 AM

符爸,一路好走

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不知道,为什么都会这么突然……

符爸,一路好走……

您的善心,耐心……

你和符妈照顾我的日子……

永不忘……

谢谢您,符爸……

安息吧……

12:33 AM

<Temporary>

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Cause a thousand words, called out through the ages

They’ll fly to you, even though I can’t see

I know they’re reaching you, suspended on silver wings

 

Over thousand words, one thousand embraces

They’ll cradle you, making all of your weary days seem far away

They’ll hold you forever

 

Over thousand words, have never been spoken

They’ll fly to you, they’ll carry you home

And back into my arms, suspended on silver wings

 

Over thousand words, called out through the ages

They’ll cradle you, making all of your lonely years to only days

They’ll hold you forever

 

So enough of that first, why there is time where I am so powerless again…

So many going through, but I just don’t know how to tell, or where to start…

So did I just lost myself?

So being unable to tell story, for a few times… It felt just not that good…

3:53 AM

<Blasphemous>

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So… Calm before the storm…

After rainbow, there this darkness fog of evil comes…

After benediction, there comes howl of terror…

Blasphemous… Just like a Warlock that focuses on Light and not Destruction, just like a Wizard that have no knowledge.

Blasphemous… Sacrilege…

 

Beatrice: Isabel, ma’am Fiona insisted you do not see Nicolai so often, she said she didn’t see you practice much Light Magic in the palace recently.

Isabel: But why? I hate practicing Light Magic… I prefer Dark Magic… Opsss, I mean I prefer physical skills, like drifting…

Beatrice: Don’t ask me… I didn’t do anything to make her say so… And I am not creepy at all, hehehe.

Isabel: Well then, hmmm… I just went Irollan that day with Nicolai, and now so fast back in Talonguard. Well, maybe I should either… Curse that bad, ignorant Nicolai…

Nicolai: Sigh…

12:29 AM