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Hiatus (Starter)

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So I am back for now… After like for months…

But now I am keeping things short…

As starter for a comeback…

Jealousy kills, but one won’t realize and won’t give up he/she kills until he/she in opposition. Don’t understand? Then try to :) cause I ain’t going to give any explanation since there is probably none, only those who learnt, realized, and admit the silly mistake would understand probably. Now I said keeping things short, so it just ends here for now… No, just don’t think too complicated, we ain’t going into basic human rights and etcetera.

Sign off and bye.

6:36 PM

22

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So I am now 22 years old, but nevertheless I really had a “special” birthday this year, in another sense… Sigh…

Well I think maybe I should get this over with soon…

Suddenly feel just lost, I forgotten how to do a good assignment? Or did I just realize UCTI modules really that bad compared APIIT SU modules?

Before this, most of us realized referencing is important as in the sense of “plagiarize” with “permission and authority”.

But now, there is more… Even in exam…

Before this, I used to know when in exam to write what I understand and to the points, and until now my average answer length for general essay question is nothing longer than 1 page or at most 1 and half pages. Now that someone told me, NOO you must write at least 3 pages each question.

Oh god… So those distinctions I got before just pure of luck? Or did the lecturer just giving easy on me because it is not Level 2 or Level 3?

So the main difference between a Computing course and Business Course… Computing course you definitely will be in the lab, and the assignments you often do not need much referencing just a few for theory, because most of the time you will be busying cracking heads (like me if not experienced enough) with the same program and testing loop, instead of Business assignments where most of the time you will be spending time finding this “CREDIBLE” references and that “TRUSTFUL” articles, and be careful… Your lecturer will tend to frighten you with the controversial “TURNITIN” plagiarism checker…

Given potential and experience, yes the Computing course assignments and things seems easier, you could finish your program within 2-3 days if it is just long enough, and the boring parts documentation came in, copy and paste and explain step by step.

Gosh… Why am I even in this stage? Guess I will grab that fella to go study automotive soon, or piloting seems not a bad idea…

And… Well Happy belated Birthday to myself… It’s about time…
3:02 PM

What the Fuck (1)

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Reasons… Is that lies? Is that excuses?

Corruptions… Nepotism Bribery Fraud Embezzlement

Sleep… In the long cold chamber, thinking for lies, excuses…

Sleep… In the long cold chamber, thinking for cover-ups…

Sleep… In the long cold chamber, thinking how to deny own fault…

Wake up… From the long cold chamber, still the same old self…

 

Trying to control… Trying to control…

With what? Remote? Power? Lies?

Hidden and dangerous…

 

It shall be your greatest mistake and defeat, for over-estimating your ability… Thank you for “maybe not” underestimating me…

1:39 AM

What’s in April 2011

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Contrary to previous post of Chain Reaction, here I am to sum it up a bit for the month of April.

As mentioned, last semester was a total failure and nightmare, hopefully I am still safe for the last subject which I get F+ for assignment for that particular subject.

Apart from there, finally saying goodbye to my mom’s 17 years old BMW 325i E38, to be replaced by Mercedes Benz C200 CGI… Well, the trend is unstoppable huh? Naturally aspirated engine begin to be phased out… All force induction now, all automatic or twin clutch automated manual now…

As for my own, did a little mod to my humble poor Civic with bad scratches… Fog lamp modified to 3000K HID, replaced stock horn to ultra high dB horn, and most importantly modified CAI in hoping to get improved fuel consumption, as well as better power (bonus). Still heartache to see those bad scratches though :(

In the end, just $$$… That would do to buy…

 

P/S: Humiliation shall not be forgotten, I will strike back ten folds when I have the chance, and power.

6:44 PM

Chain Reaction?

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So I guess… I am also having my worst semester ever in APIIT/UCTI for my last semester… Attendance is poor enough… And my first ever F+ grade in assignment, now praying for the overall module can pass…

And oh ya… Tentatively all results are just Pass, except last one still pending…

 

Well then… KP chain reaction? Nah… Maybe just 10%… We both spending time doing different thing, maybe just I got some extra money roll in while he further seal his knowledge through repetition of same things. Guess he will be a good storage management officer next time, I will definitely hire him if I ever got the chance or if he ever will work in that industry.

Paranoid security is good ya… Too bad I can’t afford it yet…

6:38 PM

May the Force be with you

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Sounds familiar? Without googling, one can tell me where it is from? No prizes anyway, and the answer not related to that of following.

 

So, I actually just don’t know how to start this off… Who wants to be emperor huh? Everyone? So you can expect someone everyone to do as you wish but you don’t need to change yourself to earn that?

That’s ok, fine~~ It is not like I will die instantly… No business? Oh well let it be, I don’t have the energy to go on with that with all new semesters and nonsense like above…

Knowledge and hardworking is shit… Don’t do it and you stay on top on the world…

Yea I tell you what, I am just going crazy… But don’t worry, I won’t let you all see me gone nuts in front your very eyes, nor did I will be gone case like Final Destination. Since I am all nonsense and really a Zero, worthless Zero, vanishing within mist is what best for me.

You don’t share vision with me, you don’t fit into my sky~~ Opss, the other way round, I don’t share you guys vision, I don’t fit in this world…

Losing is a definite options, winning is useless… Bully the inferior while avoid learning from superior…
2:16 AM

想你就写信

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看你在摇椅上织围巾 一个人在客厅
只剩下壁炉里的光影
木材在燃烧的声音


画面像离家时的风景 我那年的决定
许下的愿望都很好听 泪却红了眼睛


你说想哭就弹琴 想起你就写信
情绪来了就不用太安静
你说爱了就确定 累了就别任性
原来感觉是如此亲近


还记得院子后的风铃 学燕子在飞行
我们俩长大后的憧憬 珍重的话很轻


你说想哭就弹琴 想起你就写信
情绪来了就不用太安静
你说爱了就确定 累了就别任性
原来回忆是如此温馨
你说想哭就弹琴 想起你就写信
情绪来了不用太安静
你说爱了就确定 累了就别任性
原来回忆是如此温馨

6:50 AM

你是我的OK绷

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*一个人的时候 在陌生的街头
抬头看着繁星夜垂的天空
I know I know
地球另一端有你陪我

谢谢你鼓励我 勇气是你给我
让我迈开脚步一起往前走
I know I know
你是我的OK绷
在每一个时候*


拿一个旧皮箱
装着我的梦想
我要开始决定旅程的方向
设计稿在桌上 一叠伟大理想
当成这些卖不出去公仔的床
有天 我突发奇想
把这些公仔 送孤儿院的小孩
看着他们的表情
满足的那模样
看着他们快乐 我也跟着饱了

离开了家乡 开始我的流浪
身上只带着公仔Qpee和Guitar
它们陪着我 永远不寂寞
还有 还有 一只大狼狗
它名叫阿福 整天跟着我
在我最最难过的时候
给我温暖的眼神
肯定的微笑 准备往前出发

Repeat *
一直陪着我


(杰伦)
外婆教我唱的童谣
我也从来没忘过
她说周杰伦唱的稻香她也没忘过
就算失败就算沮丧依然记得回家
伤心就 抱着家人朋友好好哭一场
艳阳会晒干一切一切烦恼忧伤
服下我的疗伤歌曲良药并不苦
用耳朵用心听我唱
我的精彩故事还没说完
蝴蝶蝴蝶飞在天空挥动翅膀阿哈
它其实从前也只是只毛毛虫
阿不要灰心 钱没再赚 失恋再谈
只有生命不能重来
所以珍惜它的精彩
我们全都是 渺小蚂蚁
却都有存在的那意义
不愿失去 别失去勇气
那就创造回忆
裙擺舞動飄逸
踏出旋律涟漪的倒影

Repeat *
一直陪着我


趁太阳放慢脚步如果你想
跟上就必须要更努力
折一架音符纸飞机(音符纸飞机)
心系着未来的奇迹(未来的奇迹)
飞吧 用美丽旋律来洗礼
我们在大树下的约定

Repeat *
一直陪着我

6:24 AM

So

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Series of post finally reached So. Well, its been long time since last proper post, or maybe I never have proper post since day 1 this blog around :)

 

Firstly, the most recent 8.9 magnitude earthquake and gigantic tsunami that demolished almost whole east coast of Honshu, Japan. That include the crucial capital of Tokyo, to make matter worse is the freezing snowing weather, and now consecutive failure and explosion of nuclear reactor located at Fukujima, which spreads the radioactive horror.

Referring to scenario above, here comes 2 major kind of thoughts.

The first one, many said this is karma… This is what Japan deserves for their past brutality and cruelty during the imperialism era, such as the never forgotten incident of Nan Jing Massacre. For the USA however, none other than Pearl Harbor. And thus, we shouldn’t be kind and aid in Japan during this very dark hour for them.

The second one, what past is past… Japan already received the payback from the earthquake and tsunami. We shouldn’t burn the whole forest for one single corrupted tree.

Whatever it may be, in my opinion… Certainly this is the world, where there is unclear line between right and wrong… Karma or not, if there is this watcher God over in the sky, it is their arrangement, one shouldn’t mention like they made the judgment. A little help or prayers to them is kind of savior and light. It is worth to mention that the attitude of Japanese that maintain calmness even during these situations. Yes, indeed past is past, but past should never be forgotten, it is always a value and lesson. Remember it, not to hide something shameful such as denial of fact, like they didn’t admit they did Nan Jing Massacre, as well as Indonesian who did massacre of Chinese back in their land. Hatred, Terror, and Destruction… This is not what we wanted isn’t it?

And to Korean loser who don’t have culture to be proud of, continue your foolish act to steal others culture of thousand years, continue your trend of plastic surgery, I wonder when can your people face the world with their true face and culture.

And to neighbor North Korea, I see the fun of you backstabbing people with midnight bombing while claims that you didn’t in fact ordered so… And the whole world don’t owe you anything for your country poverty…

 

Secondly, the very own flash back of past experience during my gaming competition years. So there is 2 kind of spectator down there…

One will say “Why is this fella so noob yet he participate? Tak tau malu? Men-siasui-kan saja!”

Another one will say “Well at least this fella has the courage to participate and compete, for this he is one step ahead of me.”

So, kiasu-kia… You may not be worthless… But prove you are worthy by taking the first steps like others do…

“You can live in your own world, you can assume everything… But when one day you know you were wrong, admit and accept the bitter fact that you’ve been running away from fact and assume that you are on top of world while you walking towards the path of defeat.”

 

Yeah, enough of cases and scenarios… Ahhh, how I actually missed the feelings of big top level competition stages… Know of CELGames and WCG during secondary school era, but never thought one fine year of then I managed to enter, and managed to gain and experience what I wanted… If the game trend continues, I wonder will I still be in the first class players group now (Perhaps the weakest within first class group :D)? My good friend critics me, said that I over focus and well learnt in game, and spoiling every fun factor… Well, maybe subject to personality… Given the same level of 2 players, the one with better knowledge and micro wins. You can’t out perform a player that knows every single unit stats (Speed, HP, Turn, Damage) on same level of skills, unless god bless your opponent with a spoiled mouse click.

And stages… Jay Chou THE ERA World Tour… Can’t describe with words, only the live tells everything, to fans, to visitor, to those sore loser who denies Jay Chou… Jay Chou, I am glad that you existed, and that your music accompanied me throughout the years… As a nobody fans to you, I am more than proud to say along with many fans across the globe that I accompanied your 10 years of 1 era too, you won’t fall that easily, we will be seeing your next The Era.

Out from stages, back in reality… Indeed everything can be powerful in proper way and hand, such as blog and music… Can be used as weapon to attack, can be used as attraction… One fine element you must not miss out, classical song, EMO posts, and daily EMO Facebook status of the day. Strangely, you will realize suddenly you have many fans.

And now to even more reality, business… Everything I earned within the period finally is now to zero, used to repay debt to dad. Hope that I still survive and more business and opportunities to come… Yes, maybe I over focus on quality and not price, but I still cost leadership within same categories… Yes, maybe I am over focus on performance and handling etc etc… So I wonder whether comfort saves life, or safety (performance and handling leads to stability and safety)saves life… Who knows if I am wrong that actually boat is safer than cruiser (Yet to ask Mr.Warren)…

Ah… So I officially still nothing but a poor guy? Or even many hated? Oh ya, even Peggy Wong :D, and your fellow friends that used to talk on phone for 2 hours…

10:24 PM

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9:16 PM

郭富城 - 爱你

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小时候我就向往舞台 希望我能够站在上面
幻想着舞台灯光灿烂 让世界跟我一起转动

有一天终于我已长大 用汗水走出自己的路
这时候我才真正知道 这一切~~只因有你

日出到日落 白天到黑夜 常常都醒在陌生的城市
青春与泪水 来不及回顾 和时间赛跑来去都匆忙

因为你的爱使我更坚强 因为每个你给我光和热
掌声和鲜花欢呼和关怀 我把这一切放心底

我所有努力~~为你 我所有梦想~~是你
今~天~让~我~ 再说一次爱你

有一天终于我已长大 用汗水走出自己的路
这时候我才真正知道 这一切~~只因有你

日出到日落 白天到黑夜 常常都醒在陌生的城市
青春与泪水 来不及回顾 和时间赛跑来去都匆忙

因为你的爱使我更坚强 因为每个你给我光和热
掌声和鲜花欢呼和关怀 我把这一切放心底

我所有努力~~为你 我所有梦想~~是你
今~天~让~我~ 再说一次爱你

因为你的爱使我更坚强 因为每个你给我光和热
掌声和鲜花欢呼和关怀 我把这一切放心底
因为你的爱使我更坚强 因为每个你给我光和热
掌声和鲜花欢呼和关怀 我把这一切放心底

2:36 AM

Fa

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So, now it is Fa…

Well, many should be expecting something soon… The next should be Insight and SimpliCITY after another test drive round.

 

Anyway… Start off with wish list, ever greedy one…

MUGEN RR Full Set with Original Emblems + Whole Body Re-spray + Ultra Glass Coating Neo = RM4000 (3 years full warranty)

Adjustable Suspension = RM2800

Wow… That's RM6800, looks like I need to have many car mat sales to achieve that, put a simple calculation it is about 227 sets of car mat.

 

The next greedy one, hopefully I can hit the lottery ticket that my sister gave me so that my dreams are achieved within blink = =…

 

And up to college stuffs, worst semester ever… Group assignment sucks, yea it sucks to the max… Looks like I really just better working on my own… You never know when you did it on time nicely while other just oh ya? And you never know their English is just around primary school level.

 

Next one up is the very dramatic wet market war, the competition of “selling fish”… So who sells more fish? Never ending quarrel, never ending demand, yet never admit the mistakes… One just keep pointing at another selling more fish that one do, while actually self selling not only fish but big fish and crabs… Living in own thoughts and world is nice isn’t it? That’s why you never find another ownself…

 

And… Hope my car mat business will flourish… So that, even I can’t achieve my dream as above, I still can slowly use the earned money to pay debt.

2:39 AM

Great Disappointment in New Year

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First of first… Can’t get Detective Conan 1-480 from Animedia… Sigh

Second… Front passenger door side got scratched like shit, tried touch up but I feel like fucking myself off for even trying so, it just look worse and noob like a trash car…

So I am better off hoping for a jackpot to in order to fund all I need to do and pay, or else hope I will have tons of mat sales…

4:45 AM

24 Thoughts To Remember As You Go Through Life

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Winning isn’t everything, but wanting to win is.

You would achieve more, if you don’t mind who gets the credit.

When everything else is lost, the future remains.

Don’t fight too much or the enemy will know your art of war.

The only job you start at top is when you dig a grave.

If you don’t stand for something, you fall for everything.

If you do little things well, you’ll do big ones better.

The only thing that comes  to you without effort is old age.

You won’t get a second chance to make a first impression.

Only those who do nothing made no mistakes.

Those who don’t make mistakes usually don’t make anything.

Never take a problem to your boss unless you have a solution.

If you are not failing, you are not taking enough risks.

Do not try to get rid of your bad temper by losing it.

If at first you don’t succeed, then skydiving is not for you.

There are 2 kinds of failure. Those who think and never do, and those who do and never think.

Pick battles big enough to matter, small enough to win.

All progress resulted from unpopular decision.

Change your thoughts and you change your world.

Understanding proves intelligence, not the speed of learning.

There are 2 kinds of fools in the world. Those who give advice and those who don’t take it.

The best way to kill an idea is to take it to a meeting.

Management is doing things right, leadership is doing the right things.

Friendship founded on business is always better than business founded on friendship.

4:19 AM

Me

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开始觉得,很多事情怎么都行不通?

我让人放假了,放到我都无法收回了。。。另一方面,又觉得算了吧,本来就很困难的情况。。。

没有心?力不从心?不肯放点心?

看起来,好像很糟糕。。。不过,还活着。。。

没关系,找借口或许不是我的长处。。。

我不会以牙还牙,因为不应该,也因为不可以,欠太多了。。。

10:55 PM

Re

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Despite the title being Re, 但是这一次会用华语。对于一直都有再读的朋友们,知道那标题的旋律了吗?

农历新年,兔年。。。看来今年对我们属蛇的还真的是不怎么好,虽然还是稍微好过属鸡的。属蛇的我们,可以说今年不管学业、工作、金钱、感情等等的都一塌糊涂。健康与交通安全方面更是非常的糟糕,真的得多加留意。特别尤其是开车,对于某些我的朋友们,好好调整一下吧。

这新年,就像个没什么两样的假期,除了有红包拿之外。。。真的是衰,新年还得做功课。

好不容易,鼓起了勇气去做一些买卖,虽然赚不多,但希望会是好的开始,生意会慢慢的变好。

有时候在想,为什么人会这样?没完没了。。。到最后,还是像 RICO 所说的, 所谓的 “看法”“Perception” 就是那么多问题的根源与存在。一个四方的西瓜,对某某人来说是畸形、残缺、不自然、不好的。但那西瓜本身有的选吗?一开始就已经是被放在四方型箱子里那样的成长,或许它也根本不知道,自己原本是圆的。也或者,原本自由成长的西瓜,因为某天西方西瓜需求量高,就被逼放进四方箱子里。

人对人,有时候需要这样吗?带个有色眼镜,眼角调的高高在上的,那种我说是就是,哪一种我想你是这样就是这样的人,不可一世。或许除了“看法”以外,当一个人得到了权利以后,就会变质变性,那权利是多么的邪恶可以让人从善良维护弱小无辜的天使,慢慢变成惩罚罪恶的血天使,再慢慢地变成那嗜血的魔鬼。

周杰伦的《稻香》有那么一句“还记得你说家是唯一的城堡,随着稻香河流继续奔跑”以及“乡间的歌谣永远的依靠,回家吧,回到最初的美好”。但是像在我这去年这篇所说的,真是上有多么多的家庭做到吗?这世界这社会,难道已经只有责备、推卸责任、好孩子就是我孩子,坏孩子就不是我孩子的地步?又或者听我的话就是我孩子,不听的话就滚。。。

或许,周杰伦也有《听妈妈的话》。。。哦,你想要说那是天经地义的事。也没错,但请搞好状况。。。对于叶惠美叶妈妈来说,她有否对考不上大学的杰伦彻底失望?她有否在杰伦失败,或是大错特错的时候就只会说他的不是?今时今日的周杰伦周天王,要是他的母亲也像其他一样,他今天在哪?

当然,我写了这么多,无疑要是有某些人看了会觉得我不是,我自大自负。。。没关系,因为没有人能够自己看得到自己,就算镜面也是左右相反的。但毕竟,再坏的。。。根源,在哪?是谁?哦。。。不是你吗?

“不可能,不可能,我教我的孩子那么好,不是我的错。”

“哦,是吗?对不起。。。我没想到你反应这么大这么激动。要反省是很难的哦?要承认过错更加没勇气哦?”

“你说什么?你什么意思?”

“没什么没什么。。。自己说自己爽罢了。”

 

“还记得你说家是唯一的城堡,随着稻香河流继续奔跑,微微笑小时候的梦我知道;不要哭让萤火虫带着你逃跑,乡间的歌谣永远的依靠,回家吧回到最初的美好。”-- 周杰伦《稻香》副歌

那共鸣,父母与孩子的共鸣与了解。。。往哪儿找?失去了哪儿?

 

“听妈妈的话,别让她受伤,想快快长大,才能保护她;美丽的白发,幸福中发芽,天使的魔法,温暖中慈祥。”-- 周杰伦《听妈妈的话》副歌

这一刻,这一种情况,谁不要?但还是一样。。。先找回那共鸣与了解,那颗能够关怀的心。

 

还有。。。

“心里有志向,奋斗有力量”,每个人有自己的意义、定义、目标。

“一失足成千古恨,再回头已是百年身”,但每个人同样应该拥有第二次的机会。

不是每一场的赌局都会拿到好牌,即使是坏牌,你能做的、你应该在乎的,是如何把牌打到最好。所以,不要那么的一时就带有色眼镜看人。

“莫道人短,勿谈己长”,你曾经也是从零学起。

 

待续。。。

2:57 AM

The things and calculation on gear ratios

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So, typically you all know gear ratios and how it affect the speed at given RPM at certain gear with respective ratio, as well as the maximum speed you can achieve on certain gear.

Add in along with the sizes of tyre, and the weight in though might affect the results, but we going to talk on stock settings.

So before we begin, every gear has own ratios (obviously), and no matter how many gear you have, you will have one Final Ratio which always will be the culprit that people complain they can’t reach the top speed as desired. A shorter (higher number) gear ratio is more powerful, that it can climb up the revs fast and thus faster acceleration, but on the other hand give up the maximum speed achievable in that gear; while on the other hand a long gear ratio is less powerful that it can’t climb up the revs as fast as a shorter ratio, but will be able to achieve higher speed on that gear.

Therefore it is why our transmission has multiple speeds aka gears that represents into gear ratio. Imagine that there is this vehicle, with only one gear… If the factory decided to put the gear ratio at 2.5 : 1, the vehicle can accelerate quite fast and can climb up a slope easily, but the maximum speed at the max RPM, lets say for example only 55KM/H. On the other hand, if the gear ratio is at exactly 1 : 1, the vehicle accelerate very slowly from standstill, and it can’t quite climb up a slope from standstill unless given a full throttle, but it can achieve a max speed at 160KM/H at maximum RPM. Note that all the figures given are examples, without taking in the tyre size and maximum RPM into play.

Below is the calculation of a stock Civic FD2 (K20Z2/6800RPM/5AT) and Civic Type R FD2R (K20A/8300RPM/6MT).

FD2(215/45/17) FD2R(225/40/18)
Gear Gear Ratio Max Speed @ Max RPM (KM/H) Gear Ratio Max Speed @ Max RPM (KM/H)
1st 2.651 71 3.266 60
2nd 1.516 120 2.130 95
3rd 1.081 167 1.517 134
4th 0.772 231 1.147 176
5th 0.566 310 0.921 219
6th 0.738 267
Final Ratio 4.562 5.062

To be continued…
3:23 AM

Do

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So… His instinct, he believes so… That’s the truth and true color to him…

But nevertheless, none without weakness, for everyone has own strength…

As propaganda and influential as he should be…

I seriously think that somehow computer and technology literate people like him can be a good poet and author though…

“Money is not a problem, problem is no money.”
“A problem that can be settled by money is considered not a problem, only when you have no money.”

So you invest in a hybrid/turbo-diesel/TSI to save fuel? Short term or long term?
So you sell some big stuffs like lands and houses to cover expenses while you still spend another average big portion to get another house to sustain living.

So shall we do absorption costing or marginal costing?

Every month needs to pay 3000 fixed expenses, a year is of 36000 in total. On hand there is 40000 left, which covers about 13 months.

Sell ABC condo units for 30000, spend 25000 gained to buy a smaller terrace, 2000 spent on shifting and etcetera fees, left 3000 for you to pay an extra month of expenses.

Well how easy if this is the question coming out this Friday for AFI test?

I felt for her situation… But I can’t help any, or much… Yes, I telling myself to restrain any temper on her usual “never-mind” attitude… Yes, I can only help her in cleaning vehicle and only to be made dirty by her the next hour. Well, still living isn’t it? Yet, she could do better…

And… Hopefully the first step on me in business world will be successful and even leading to greater opportunities… Hope those friends in my list would be with me if there is the chance…

10:18 PM

Another long hiatus

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So it is almost end of semester along with a Chinese New Year holiday in between, with assignments to hand in… Well, what needs to be done…

New comp to play around with… But then as usual, I kinda sad to put my old comp away, serving me so well, still missing that super fast boot up and shut down of E6600, other than the weird restart it’s just working very well. Well I would get beaten up by dad if I said I wanted to have both, so… Sigh… Unless I paid for it…

And for my Civic wise, after PS3 and RapidStop brake pads, here comes another try of Honda ATF Z1 Ultra… Just the first step of accelerator and the difference is obvious to blind and deaf.

And then it is… Maybe just some mental breakdown, not sure what happened to me or surroundings… Everything so wrong? Or just my thoughts and temper?

As for my very special friend, he seems to be still circling around his “presumed thoughts” aka presumptions… OR in first person view, assumptions… I wonder does that really made him the righteous person? Or maybe really made him more happy?

3:45 AM

First post in year 2011

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So, did not really sense the feeling of being in a new year of 2011. Wish and hope for a better year though…

However… Things not likely to happen… Things around just as worse as before… Maybe it is me after all who creates them?

Yes, I am in debt, big debt shall I say? To my parents and to Peggy. Well, will need to try real hard to pay back all…

One thing I keep telling myself now, maybe if that’s the way for you to care me, then let it be, not that I don’t appreciate, but for me it is being an excuse for you long and long soon enough. I won’t voice out anything again for now, it’s difficult as things not in my control either.

The trip that I wished to be a good turnaround did not work out 100% either… But then still acceptable…

Freedom… Financial freedom… Yea, there is one seemingly opportunity, but I don’t have the budget to risk it either…

Maybe in the end still conclude that I suck… And that she deserves better… Full of love, caring and freedom.

2010 gone… 2011 will I witness its departure in the same old way too?

To all out there, have a happy, smooth, and prosperous year of 2011 with endless joy and fun.

4:17 PM