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Alike

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Alike… Alike… Alive
People alike… Thinks alike…
People alike… Thinks alive…
People alive… Thinks alike? NO…
There wouldn’t be so much cases, whatever that human beings brought up if the last statement is true…
Reflect… Refract… Reflect…
“If you wanna make the world a better place, take a look at yourself and then make a change.” [Michael Jackson “Man In The Mirror”]
1:53 AM

To you and only you

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It’s been almost 5 years…

Yet you still the best for me…

Yes… You are somehow correct, weird problems…

But maybe that’s what makes up the funny moments… And the reason we always crap or quarrel over silly or same matters ha.

I know… I am nowhere or hardly anywhere to your expectation…

Still… Happy enough to can help you anytime… Even just crap to accompany you…

I am not a good stress manager… But I always ask you not to over the limit, I trust your abilities and so do you must… Everything will be fine on you, Ping.

 

P/S: Really enjoy the moment with you… Even silly sms haha…

1:39 AM

Worthy… Worthless

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Excellent… Flawless…

My friends are actually all worthy… No matter how… They get what they wanted, and live happily ever after… Sounds like story…

Me… Worthless… Maybe I should modify, worthless scum? All just shit… Whatever…

Now…

Being kind, and always applying mirror reflection theory… It should do good, but it just ends up so stupid…

Like Tzmin said, people should be selfish… MYOB… AKA BN theory. Ever wonder how that worked out, and luckily the world isn’t spinning according to that theory.

And…

Talking something deep and knowledgeable… People end up commenting you insane, or just don’t give a damn… But I do agree, people always like crap and those basics, I do sometimes.

Procrastination… Ahh right… Feel good… I always do when fetching KP… But KP always do and overdo upon more important yet inevitable stuff like assignment, what can you say? But he is lucky… He always just get distinction anyway… Just close eyes about this…

Minds can be full of thought… Or maybe I am much more… Brain cells stores whatever it can, but why can’t just remember some simple useful things? Just use 10% of the effort in remembering craps will do.

 

ABOVE ALL ELSE

Just ignore after reading… As I think I am the most failure here…

I do have my loved one, Siang Ping… Although not together and for so long but it’s ok… You are the one… Simple yet just good that I could carry on… Love ya…

I don’t just have the words or sentence now to say out everything… I may be stupid on what people deemed important… So do you have insight and understanding on the real important shit?

1:13 AM

Flashback @ November’s Chopin

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It reminds me of that time when you flash your camera at me… Being so close yet so far…

Without going deep into my mind to think exactly which year is that, where me and you attended the Jay Chou autograph session for The November’s Chopin album… Our first one, yet unforgettable one.

Around 6pm we reach there at One Utama New Wing, there were already crowd leaving us no choice but to queue far behind, also where we knew about MyJaysian which we subsequently joined after the event.

So hmmm… What we had there for dinner, no… Nothing… There were already long queue. I am with a bag, along with camera, and our albums inside. The environment there is high while hot, with MY FM DJ to bring the heat up further until Jay Chou’s arrival, at approximately 8pm.

We took some photos along the way… But sadly I lost all last time during formatting… We were hungry, with me having just a bottle of water to sustain both of us.

You slept on my shoulder briefly, and I take you on my back where you hold me tight for some distance, before we realizing its almost 10:30pm, 2 and half hour waiting we have gone through… We are almost there…

And around 10:50pm, we were on the stage, with Jay Chou in smile, signing our album… It’s good to see that, and your smile after the exhausting moment.

And we meet up with your sister, and her boyfriend and we headed to Kiven’s Corner… Although the Maggi Goreng there not so nice, but it will do for all the hunger just now…

I will remember that moment… With the song in mind most with you… 夜曲

3:41 AM

Potato’s question

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So Potato actually asks me… Why do I need a performance vehicle like Civic Type R?

To avoid wasting further time… Simply one don’t just understand the car…

And above all else… Simple… It is the word always, PASSION.

But this PASSION is expensive no doubt…

 

Just like his PASSION, basketball.

So FD2 is good… At least in much people eyes including myself… But wait till you get into the Type R…

12:38 AM

Sigmund Freud Structural model of Psyche

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Id… The unconscious… The Pleasure Principle

Ego… The pre-conscious… The Reality Principle

Super Ego… The conscious… The Perfection Principle

 

This somehow reminds me of psychology course…

Today dig it out and recall some of the points…

This should prove useful in some analysis…

 

THE ID

The id is the only component of personality that is present from birth. This aspect of personality is entirely unconscious and includes of the instinctive and primitive behaviors. According to Freud, the id is the source of all psychic energy, making it the primary component of personality.
The id is driven by the pleasure principle, which strives for immediate gratification of all desires, wants, and needs. If these needs are not satisfied immediately, the result is a state anxiety or tension. For example, an increase in hunger or thirst should produce an immediate attempt to eat or drink. The id is very important early in life, because it ensures that an infants needs are met. If the infant is hungry or uncomfortable, he or she will cry until the demands of the id are met. However, immediately satisfying these needs is not always realistic or even possible. If we were ruled entirely by the pleasure principle, we might find ourselves grabbing things we want out of other people's hands to satisfy our own cravings. This sort of behavior would be both disruptive and socially unacceptable. According to Freud, the id tries to resolve the tension created by the pleasure principle through the primary process, which involves forming a mental image of the desired object as a way of satisfying the need. Simply say, the basic needs such as food, shelter, and also can be linked to sexual drive, aka the Libido.

 

THE EGO

The ego is the component of personality that is responsible for dealing with reality. According to Freud, the ego develops from the id and ensures that the impulses of the id can be expressed in a manner acceptable in the real world. The ego functions in both the conscious, preconscious, and unconscious mind.
The ego operates based on the reality principle, which strives to satisfy the id's desires in realistic and socially appropriate ways. The reality principle weighs the costs and benefits of an action before deciding to act upon or abandon impulses. In many cases, the id's impulses can be satisfied through a process of delayed gratification--the ego will eventually allow the behavior, but only in the appropriate time and place.
The ego also discharges tension created by unmet impulses through the secondary process, in which the ego tries to find an object in the real world that matches the mental image created by the id's primary process.

 

THE SUPER EGO

The last component of personality to develop is the superego. The superego is the aspect of personality that holds all of our internalized moral standards and ideals that we acquire from both parents and society--our sense of right and wrong. The superego provides guidelines for making judgments. According to Freud, the superego begins to emerge at around age five.
There are two parts of the superego:

  1. The ego ideal includes the rules and standards for good behaviors. These behaviors include those which are approved of by parental and other authority figures. Obeying these rules leads to feelings of pride, value, and accomplishment.
  2. The conscience includes information about things that are viewed as bad by parents and society. These behaviors are often forbidden and lead to bad consequences, punishments, or feelings of guilt and remorse.

The superego acts to perfect and civilize our behavior. It works to suppress all unacceptable urges of the id and struggles to make the ego act upon idealistic standards rather that upon realistic principles. The superego is present in the conscious, preconscious, and unconscious.

1:16 AM

莫名其妙

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就说吗。。。刚开始还好好的。。。才一个星期,就完全变了。。。真有这么冷的人吗?

还真是莫名其妙。。。

算了。。。反正最近我身边的朋友都有类似的状况。

2:27 AM

Mark in history: CELGames 2008

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It is in this unforgettable competition, I made my most important mark. Not even WCG 2008 would serve me this deep…

Recalling back… Really thanks to Potato @ Yu Peng and Charles for accompanying me to competition, even participated in it although they are quite unwilling… Due to unfamiliarity with the games which is Kane’s Wrath, and also all sorts of famed opponent, ranging all the [r0r1] clan members, to the freelance Holyboy, and the Singapore champion Ravana @ Dennis Ooi, the hardcore Nod player.

The replays pack for all of them still kept intact with me all within a zip file… That would do well…

Charles is a bit unlucky due to same group during group stage knockout with Ravana… I didn’t quite remembered Potato’s fate but he did proceed further…

And the mark is where Me vs Ravana during the top 8. First map I chosen Tournament Tower, typical Nod vs Nod… Where I emerge victorious. Second map Ravana chosen his favorite Tournament Decision, this is the mark and also the pain deep in my memory, just a mere distraction, just mere 0.5 seconds more, and Ravana is defeated and sent to loser brackets. But losing is still losing… And third match referee chosen Tournament Dustbowl, Ravana used my anti-ordinary mindset which I always applied on Pipeline Problems, and I wasn’t aware going for Shadow Team to secure both spikes, while Ravana twisted the ordinary way and go for all in bike rush… GG for me within 4 minutes.

The second match is where all players watching, hoping there is finally a Malaysian to win Ravana for true… But still I failed it just in that few seconds timing. But still being the first to clinch a single win from him, is what I never dreamed of… And being credited by him during interview, as the most toughest player he met.

Damn… Finding back all those intense micro skills feeling just good…

11:51 PM

For the time being

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Maybe not as title…

But then always hated for being like this, no money to buy stuffs… And basically everyone hate so I suppose…

Always been saying this to Khai Phin and Peggy… Let’s get a set of number and try your luck… But then, really luck? Or controlled?

Technically wise… On the positive side, if really playing luck… You get rewards with little effort…

Or… You work it out normal way and earn it hard way, guaranteed way but speed varies… And in the end, there is one way to judge whether worth or not worth… Smart way or stupid way…

And about the main point of this post… I believe from the first and second paragraph, friends that really know me well enough already figured out…

Really gonna say… Whatever whatever…

10:49 PM

Honda Freed snapshot

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Freed

2:21 PM

Life (1)

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At last… Going to place booking for the precious Honda Civic Type R (FD2R).

Such a long way… Long dreamed car…

BUT…

The car is not mine…

Phang Sheng might joke like Charles “Haha, the name not yours only is it?”

Nope… Not only name, not for me either haha…

Well, so this is life… Don’t know what is in front, and you don’t get what you want 90% of the time also…

Sometimes… After talk to and seeing Khai Phin’s situation… Not if I am the worst, but actually I am the worst. Trust, love and etcetera…

12:45 AM

Video Games Live

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Finally after 4 years… and fifth years in running, this concert is in Malaysia.

Originally not be going because nobody accompany me to go… Even Khai Phin also kinda look down on it…

But luckily… With Khai Phin changed idea last minute, attended the concert with RICO Lee Lo Li, all on the less expensive RM83…

I just can’t tell how nice the concert is… That sure it will worth the RM253 tickets… Just one small thing, it seems they got the research done wrongly in Malaysia? How come no Command & Conquer, Dawn of War etc music played?

Other than music… Learned a lot of stuffs regarding video games, its development, history, importance and implications… Not to forget the main focus itself this time, music. Especially for Khai Phin, I hope he found himself some new insight and knowledge, not to be so negligence like before. Although I feel sorry he quite felt asleep during one point, but still rather enjoyed luckily.

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The tickets2The hallway

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Plenary Hall sign

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Video Games Live sign

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Video Games Live Stage6 7

Lights off… Starting…

 

Bought some merchandises too… Rico get himself a keychain, KP got CD, while I got T-shirt.

11 VGL T-shirt, model courtesy of Khai Phin.

And of course… From 8:30pm to 11:15pm… Could have just imagined all LYNers down there, along with hell lot APIITians too… How enjoying they are… And on the way walking back to Suria KLCC… Took some for fun photos…

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12:36 AM

Detective Conan 14th movie installment

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Conan

Detective Conan: The Lost Ship in the Sky (名探偵コナン 天空の難破船) is the 14th movie installment of the manga and anime series Detective Conan. The movie will be released on April 17, 2010. This movie is confirmed to have Kaito Kid involved in it after his last appearance in The Private Eyes' Requiem.

Jirokichi Suzuki, Sonoko's uncle, invites Conan, Ran, the Junior Detective League, and others to ride Bell Tree, the largest airship in the world, for a six-hour trip to Osaka. However, Kid has his eyes set on the Lady of the Sky, a jewel aboard the vessel. Also, the mysterious terrorist group known as Red Siamese Cat will try to hijack the airship itself.

Well April 17, as usual for Japan, Hong Kong, and Britain… Malaysia will have to wait for DVD, or the unorthodox way which KP always will do and enjoy before me, torrent.

6:41 AM

吻别

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前尘往事成云烟消散在彼此眼前
就连说过了再见也看不见你有些哀怨
给我的一切你不过是在敷衍
你笑的越无邪我就会爱你爱得更狂野


总在刹那间有一些了解
说过的话不可能会实现
就在一转眼发现你的脸
已经陌生不会再像从前
我的世界开始下雪
冷得让我无法多爱一天
冷得连隐藏的遗憾都那么地明显


我和你吻别在无人的街
让风痴笑我不能拒绝
我和你吻别在狂乱的夜
我的心等著迎接伤悲


想要给你的思念就像风筝断了线
飞不进你的世界也温暖不了你的视线
我已经看见一出悲剧正上演
剧终没有喜悦我仍然躲在你的梦里面


总在刹那间有一些了解
说过的话不可能会实现
就在一转眼发现你的脸
已经陌生不会再像从前
我的世界开始下雪
冷得让我无法多爱一天
冷得连隐藏的遗憾都那么地明显


我和你吻别在无人的街
让风痴笑我不能拒绝
我和你吻别在狂乱的夜
我的心等著迎接伤悲
我和你吻别在无人的街
让风痴笑我不能拒绝
我和你吻别在狂乱的夜
我的心等著迎接伤悲

10:59 PM

A ride in Toyota Corolla Altis

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Courtesy of Charles… Got a ride in Toyota Corolla Altis 1.8G…

A quick review on specification, featuring 1ZZ-FE 1.8 DOHC VVT-i mated to 4 Speed Super ECT, outputting 132PS@6000RPM and 170Nm@4200RPM .

Now this is why old man loves Toyota really, any bumps or potholes (assuming not to big for your whole wheel to drop down) you can just run over at 60KM/H, you barely feel anything. This is so called comfort, and led to the saying “Toyota suspension very good”… Sorry, wrong explanation… Just the settings…

The Super ECT is general feeling that Toyota will give… Hard footed, light footed is not a problem… It will make you feel you still a professional driver… Wonder if they can apply that to brake? So that those beginner will have a better time along with their pity passenger.

Aircond? At 24 degree Celsius with 1 speed setting, Charles still chilling himself and me to half death. And cornering definitely just so and so.

Overall… Overtaking, cruising and everything just fine enough for a practical car, but as always underpowered for nowadays.

Other than wood trim that I dislike, I discovered another more annoying stuff… Which is reverse sensor, when you engage into R… It is like those lorries, start beeping non stop just to tell you “I am reversing”.

9:56 PM

Findings again

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So… I found that, it may not be coincident that I have so much J in my life… Some being important, some are just passing by…

However… Can I know if it is coincident that I will too have much, ermm… Not really much but more than one Ice, just like J in my life?

Ice…

Ice + N = Nice

1:24 AM

Something is everything, something for nothing

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Can just ignore the title if have no idea what it is about…

Basically… Just gonna update some recent happenings…

First of all… From Business Computing in Management (UC2F0907BCMGMT) to Business Management Program (UC1F0910BMP) and later to International Business Management.

Second… Quite broken somehow… Rims, and some unnoticeable liabilities… Luckily settled much…

Third… This is just crap, how I wish I just got a lottery strike worth millions… Not dream, but you need to invest in order to dream, as KP’s dad said.

Fourth… Somehow sleeping early, and kena “put aeroplane” or “put helicopter” or even “put rocket” unintentionally or intentionally by KP but that’s ok… Individual rights…

Fifth… Hope KP will marry Peggy as in 12 December 2012… Lolz

Sixth… I just hope I will kill all 6 subjects… Perfect and hard counter

Seventh… Seven of July? Well… Nobody loves me… EPIC Fail… Haih…

Eighth… ISMT, LEB, AS, BCS, MKG, BEN.

Ninth… Can I just have someone?

Tenth… 10/10 I hope

12:10 AM

i-City

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After the 3S Seminar, we had a unplanned, unexpected, but yet orthodox visit to i-City, supposedly built by Mr î Khai Phin?

It is mainly an area, said to be the IT City of Klang… With some attractive decorations that will show their true colors at night.

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1:43 AM

3S Seminar

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This seminar is mainly about The Great Eastern insurance company, and how it works, and why it works…

The main speech is given by î Tan Khai Phin’s dad, also the future father in law of Peggy Wong, permanent lifetime member of MDRT association, Mr Tan Kim Kok.

It is clear that now I know why Khai Phin has a definite salute and respect to his father, with all he had achieved from scratch, or maybe not scratch, at least with heart and dignity.

3S, from what I understand, is a division set up by Mr Tan Kim Kok himself, stands for Super Success Synergy, devoted to recruit and train new employee in a manner, that is designed and overlooked by Khai Phin’s dad. A quick search revealed that Khai Phin’s dad is registered as Port Klang area insurance representative in Yellow Pages.

And yes… Who doesn’t want to be financial burden free as soon as possible…

“没有梦想,只有创造。”

“如何赚取人生第一个一百万?一百万多吗?”

“你需要三十年,我需要十年;人生有多少个十年?”

“夜梦和白日梦的差别,就是在于你能不能控制。”

“人生有多少个黑点?”

“不在于牌好不好,而在于如何把牌打好”

“如果你生来穷困,不是你的错;但如果你死时依然穷困,就是你的错。”

1:28 AM